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- Lou_lourocks
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thank you! Yes, I pretty much worry a lot of the day about my image, and loss of self control around food. Thanks for the advice ?
No problem! ❤️
I don’t know if this is the same as what you have with food, but for me I have developed disordered eating with my ocd. It started with the feeling that if I don’t eat I have control over something others don’t control. Then I started to fear I’d get food poisoning from food. Now I’m stuck not eating because I think I’ll get sick from food and when my ocd gets bad I choose not to eat as a way of getting control over something. I’ve never been overweight. I’ve always been borderline underweight but have also always been aware of my body image and keeping myself thin. I think there is a connection with ocd and eating disorders, but I’m no expert.
Some people consider BDD to be an adjacent mental disorder to OCD, and some even look at it under the same umbrella. To give an example, I don't obsess about my weight/image daily, and I don't have full-blown BDD or an eating disorder, but I still sometimes have disordered eating or unhealthy/rigid self-perceptions. I also think, at least for myself, my thoughts tend to be "sticky" in the sense that even if I'm thinking about something that's not within my typical themes, I still sometimes have a lot of repetitive or rigid thinking. So, without having much other context, I would just say it depends. If it's causing distress and if it's excessive, it could be worth exploring with a professional to see how you can become more comfortable with your thoughts.
I don’t think I have any of those symptoms. However I really struggle with self control over food (hoarding maybe?) and worrying about my belly fat.
One of my obsessions is about the fear of being fat. Can anyone relate? I’m struggling with grad school and have no control over working out so my thoughts are terrible. Getting dressed in the morning and constantly checking the mirror and obsessing over how people see me is exhausting...
tldr: can’t stop obsessing over weight after i started cheer with a lot of tiny short girls, who tend to make slightly backhanded comments. does anybody have any experience or advice on something like this. recently i havnt been able to stop obsessing over my weight. it’s to the point where i can’t sleep at night by thoughts that i’m fat and i get so mad when i do eat. my first reaction if i do something wrong is to not let myself eat because i don’t deserve it. i am constantly comparing myself to other girls and i can hardly focus on anything else. i had some issues with this before but it’s gotten a lot worse since starting cheer, and all the backhanded comments i’ve endured during the season. while most of the girls are fairly short (4’9 to 5’3) i’m 5’4 1/2 and they always bring up how tall and heavy i am, even though i’m a normal weight for my height. it’s just so difficult to constantly tell yourself not to eat and then if you do you beat yourself up over it. i also struggle with contamination ocd, adm with that i can at least i can temporarily get rid of those feelings, but not with this. if anybody has any advise for this, please let me know.
Possible trigger warning if anyone else has an ED. I saw a post online that basically said if you cant have a restrictive eating disorder without being fatphobic. I have Anorexia, struggled with it for years. I truly believe in beauty at every size and eating what you want, I've never been the type of person to judge others for their bodies or what they eat. I would never look down on someone for their weight and I hate it when other people with my disorder shame people for being overweight or use it to 'encourage' themselves. I do have an unexplainable fear of gaining weight but that unfortunately just comes with the illness and i only ever apply these standards to myself. There's even been times I wished more people could think more like me so that I wouldn't be insecure about gaining weight. I genuienly dont equate weight to anyone's worth, to me it's just a number until I'm the one on the scale. My OCD is telling me now that by struggling an ED i hate fat people or am being offensive. That I should force myself to eat even though it makes me anxious and it's not something I can just force myself to do. I've been in this horrible limbo all day with my mind on whether or not just being sick makes me a terrible person. :') I hate OCD.
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