I’ve never loved myself

I feel this so deeply. Sending you hugs.

I totally understand how you feel, I am in the same boat. I just hope you realize, you deserve recovery and healing. It’s definitely a journey, and recovery isn’t linear, but you’ve made it through all of your hardest days so far. You’re strong and you’ve got this! - one OCD sufferer to another 🫶

I want to share some thoughts that might resonate with those of you grappling with intrusive thoughts or lingering regrets from the past. First and foremost, it's essential to remember that our thoughts are not definitive representations of who we are. They often stem from random electrical impulses in our brains and can feel overwhelming at times. It’s important to acknowledge that these thoughts do not define us. Instead, they are just passing moments that we can observe without judgment. Secondly, it’s crucial to realize that past events would have unfolded regardless of our actions. We often believe we are the main cause of certain outcomes, but many events occur independently of our choices. Think of your life as a storybook; while you can read and reflect on the pages, you did not write the narrative that led to those moments. This perspective can help alleviate feelings of guilt and self-blame. Lastly, let’s remember that we are all human, and making mistakes is part of the experience. It’s vital to forgive ourselves for past errors and recognize that these experiences contribute to our growth. The mere act of reflecting on our mistakes shows that we have learned and evolved. To foster healing and personal growth, consider incorporating some positive habits into your daily routine: Get Outside: Aim for daily walks in the sunlight. Nature has a remarkable way of uplifting our spirits. Pursue Hobbies: Engage in activities that bring you joy and fulfillment. This can help redirect your focus and energy. Volunteer: Offering guidance to others who may be facing similar challenges can be incredibly rewarding. It not only helps them but also reinforces your own lessons learned. By taking these steps, you can create a meaningful path toward moral repentance and personal development, freeing yourself from the burdens of the past. Remember, healing is a journey, and every small step counts. Embrace it with kindness and patience towards yourself. Have a great day all 😊

Yeah this pretty much sums it up. I live with lots of regrets that makes not want to be in a relationship even though I long for a man to love me. And I want be able to live my life without this thing controlling me. Also yeah I've had body image issues as well. It didn't help that I grew without any friends either so I suck talking to people.

I’ve also struggled with vivid false memories and still do. Little off topic but I do have this one life lesson (that I still struggle with lol and bear with me I will get to the point haha) Every human has intrinsic worth that never goes up or down. The reason working hard matters is so society can work together to survive but the point is not to be productive, it is to survive so we can just be/have fun ultimately. Even people with CRAZY views who think we should kill others for the greater good, only do that cause they care about lives in the first place. we miss THE answer that is right in front of us: We’re intrinsically worthy. Yes our actions have value in the sense they have a cause and effect, But being in pain or not being in pain does not change your intrinsic worth. (Think about it: if doing good things to help others/being productive is how we EARN our worth, then why would we help children if they are not capable of truly contributing to society? Like sure they could grow up to be “productive citizens,” BUT no one would say a child who died at 12 yrs old was a waste of a human being. Or what about a terminally ill child? Sure typically they are “innocent” but what if they were actually evil/rude? We’d still make them comfortable right? Like what would be the point of helping someone who is worthless in order to earn our own worth? How could that even be possible? It’s an endless loop/dead end, unless we accept that intrinsic worthiness is at play.) Point is we are not our actions. Not the bad ones and not even the good ones. I truly think that PRIDE and SHAME are NOT opposites but the fuel of each other Humbleness is the cure. Which is UN-CONDITIONAL love for others and yourself Basically regardless of anything (lazy/successful/good/evil etc.) don’t love yourself more or less💗 and when you make a moral mistake have “good-guilt” (which is empathy for the person you hurt that motivates you to change) Let positive reinforcement come from doing good stuff for the sake of it, NOT self esteem. (Obviously please have self esteem LOL just don’t treat it as “conditional”) That is how you get rid of insecurity/ego/separate your essence from your actions ANYWAY LOL hopefully this “hit-different” and you can embody this logic in a way that helps your emotional state🤟