Harm OCD

I just wanna tell you that I’ve been where you are and I know exactly what you’re saying. I suffer with harm ocd and it revolves around hurting my kids. One day it just snapped in me like “Oh I can do this to them and that to them” and I never ever thought that before. I checked myself into a psych ward because I literally had one thought all day long about hurting them and it scared the shit out of me. Trust me when I say that they didn’t even find anything wrong and I told them exactly what was on my mind. Fast forward to now and I’ve been working with NOCD for 6 months and I wish I found them from the start. They are life changing. They aren’t fazed by anything you say that sounds shocking because they’ve heard it all before. It’s still extremely terrifying to you and I know that because I’ve had the heart racing, lack of sleep, not eating and losing 10lbs in a week from the anxiety. For example in one of my sessions I had to walk around my kids with a knife and that was my biggest fear. I didn’t hurt them, I didn’t use it on them, it just got that fear out of my system and allows you to see that you are really in control of your body no matter what your OCD wants to tell you. Im not a doctor but that pain in your chest sounds like so much anxiety you’re having from the thoughts. I don’t want to give you reassurance but I will say you’re stronger than you realize and you’re taking steps to get better and get help which is huge and I’m here for you!