Why does it come back?

but your human, that’s not even a problem with OCD, you’re a human, give yourself some compassion, it’s hard to always stay afloat sometimes we fall under but what doesn’t change is reality, just how we see it! It won’t always be butterflies and rainbows but they are always just around the next corner ;)

sending you love! experiencing same thing right now…. just trying to remember that it will go away eventually.

what ramps up is the part of your ocd that is trying to protect you. In turn it makes everything a lot worse. If you’ve watched inside out 2, it’s periods of high stress when anxiety can really take over. Your ocd is good at creating delusions out of stressful situation, often times based off what what you’re feeling. "If i’m scared because of x, that must be y". Two thing that will benefit you, learning to live your life even when you feel that whatever you’re doing is pointless because there is a bigger issue (that your ocd is creating) at hand. How do you do this? Simply by just trying every day, Take your OCD with you, it won’t go away just because you want it to, eventually, you will be so concentrated on your day to day life that the ocd feelings start to weaken their hold. Secondly, try you hardest to see what your ocd is saying, and why it’s saying it. I suffer from ROCD, here’s a scenario as an example. My girlfriend and i love to talk, so much so that we commonly interrupt each other in our own excitement, when i get interrupted i get a bit frustrated, when she interrupts me i feel that frustration. I begin to get anxiety over this frustration and my thoughts go wild, the one that my OCD clings to is that is that I don’t love my girlfriend or at least that I’m not as attracted to her and I could do better and find someone that doesn’t frustrate me. I’ll then begin to over analyze and search for all the times she frustrates me to further prove my point that i don’t love her. I can live in this world forever. OR i can do this. Why do you feel you don’t love her, oh because she frustrated you, but your friends and family frustrate them and you never draw this conclusion so readily? Ooooh so since she’s your girlfriend it’s unacceptable, but why is that? Oh because a girlfriend shouldn’t ever frustrate you, if they do that isn’t real love and you could do better….. so at this point i realize isn’t that being delusional? That this isn’t reality, i believed i didn’t love her because i validated the connection that when a girlfriend frusterates you it means that you guys aren’t compatible, and it doesn’t take a genius to realize that the way you were thinking is flawed, so why am I obsessing over this thought.

I realize that every time she frustrates me and that fear of i don’t love you comes back, i realize that just because it feels so strong and real doesn’t mean it’s actually happen, it’s just a representation of how much you fear this reality. So when periods of high stress are around and my OCD is looking for the next thing to freak out over, i know it’s always freaking out over situations that just don’t align with what’s actually going on, it’s all in your head, which is why I can continue to just let the thoughts and feelings be there because it doesn’t matter how much i think or feel them, they won’t change reality. And after like a few times of defusing these thoughts, you’ll see it just go away like every other thought

don’t be too hard on yourself about it happening again, it’s natural, why wouldn’t you freak out over something that scares you? Just take the time to realize that what ever your scared about, if you really ask yourself why without trying to be logical, truly find out why it scares you, at some point you’ll realize oh crap that a stupid delusion that i was believing for whatever reason. Feelings can be realllllllly deceiving