Religious OCD

Does anybody elses intrusive thoughts feel so real that you are starting to think it's you. These thoughts are starting to feel like there coming from me and I'm not sure what to do. I can't seem to find peace and I'm always in despair I'm trying to focus on God but it's so hard I feel so disconnected from him and scared I'm gonna lose my soul. I can't even pray without intrusive thoughts trying to trick me into thinking I'm not even praying to God. I'm really worried and confused about were these thoughts are coming from I'm starting to feel numb and I'm scared I'm gonna make God mad or something.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 18w ago

Well, they are coming FROM you, but they are ego-dystonic (which means they don't reflect who you are from a moral and value standpoint). Your brain is sending you junk mail. And you don't have any spam blockers in place. The operating theory behind OCD is the logic part of our brain kinda stops functioning and blood diverts to the "self preservation-must keep him alive" area of the brain" for no reason. Hence why OCD is a thought disorder. Also, that which you resist will persist. So as messed up as it feels, you need to let those intrusive thoughts just pass thru and just observe them like you would watch a cloud go by. no matter how bad, taboo, sinful, wrong, shameful, guilty, anything, just let them pass thru. and don't do the things you normally would do that might give you relief (pray or confess or ritualize). OCD is a hungry bug in your brain you must starve it. You do that by ignoring it. ACKNOWLEDGE it yes, but don't feed it. just look at it, say " hmm, there goes an OCD thought" and then get back to doing what you are doing. its ok and its normal and likely that the thoughts will stick around. It takes practice. but keep doing it, over and over and in time your ocd bug will get bored and stop sending the thoughts and your logical brain should start to take control of things again. be kind to yourself. I don't speak for God, but as I fellow Christian, I think God would want you to have grace for yourself and ask for guidance in finding the strength to overcome your trials and tribulations. YOU got THIS!

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

Thank you but I keep getting thoughts like I like Satan or I worship him and it feels so good, I'm just nervous about them and what it says about me

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 18w ago

I have the same thing that happen where the intrusive thoughts comes into where I pray. Just know that God knows what you’re dealing with. He knows it’s not true. It’s the ocd. You don’t need to repeat it till it’s right or you think you’re going to be okay. He knows you’ve accepted him. I’ve struggled here lately with all of that. thinking I don’t believe in Jesus and keep having to repeat of getting my heart and trusting that Jesus died for my sins. In those times I pray to God and ask to help me get through it. I also question things. For some reason my ocd makes it seem like God is a punisher. I know he’s not. He’s helped me in so many ways. What I try to do in those situations is take a deep breath and just don’t do the ritual for a minute or two. Then I say that this is my ocd and it’s not true. It’s making me super uncomfortable. Sometime I get so worked up I cry out of frustration. Then I pray to God. Even when I get an intrusive thought. I jump back and ask God to disregard the bad thought and to help me through this. I ask him to help me in my heart and my brain. I’m telling you, your soul is not going to be lost. God loves you and knows it’s a mental illness that a lot of other people have. You know they’re not from you. Don’t let your mind think that that’s your actual thought. I don’t know if it would help, but maybe reading some of the brighter/happier stories from the Bible? You’re not alone!

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

I think I feel into the trap of thinking they are my thoughts, and I'm scared that I'm gonna get God mad at me now and I'm worried about not going to heaven or never seeing my family again.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

Why is it when I ask God for forgiveness or tell him to disregard the bad thoughts my mind thinks it's funny and that I'm lieing I'm not really sure why that is happening.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 Well you gotta keep telling your mind to shut up! Everytime it tries just tell it to shut up and go away. (It’s the dumbest thing but saying that also gives you a little break to breathe.) like my doc tells me, your ocd gets bigger every time you feed it. So if you can put it on hold for even a minute, it gives you you a second to try to calm down and grasp ahold of it

Username: JanetfisaJanetfisa

Date posted: 18w ago

God hears my heart when my brain makes too much noise. I was tormented for years aboutcthe same thing thinking I wasn't worthy. Through my Baptism Jesus called me by name to tell me I am worthy. I hold onto that thought and keep Jesus in my heart and soul. My brain my go off on a tangent but Jesus is still with me.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 17w ago

are you able to get signed up with one of the NOCD therapists? Reading your posts, I see a lot of compulsive reassurance seeking and you speak as if you are trying to reassure yourself ( also compulsive) You have a subtype of OCD that focuses on Religious and Morality themes and I really think you would benefit from guided ERP with one of the train therapists. I am working with one currently and she is helping me ALOT!

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 17w ago

@TexasOCD41 I would but my parents would not let me so I just relie on God to help me and try my best. Some days are good some aren't it all depends.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 17w ago

@Jesuslover28 - I am sorry your parents will not let you access the help you need. I would still suggest you educate yourself about ERP, OCD and start trying to employ the tools that are available. God helps those who help themselves. You have the power to have more control of your life and live a full one that is not controlled by OCD and I think treating your OCD will actually improve your relationship with God because it will no longer be one driven by fear and anxiety but one by love and faith. Do some research about moral scrupulosity ocd (I think that's what sub-type you have) or taboo thinking and then research about ERP and try to set up some homework for yourself. You can do it! i believe it you.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 17w ago

@TexasOCD41 True I talk to my mom all the time and she always says God helps those who help themselves. Thank you for your advice and I will definitely look it up.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 17w ago

@Jesuslover28 - And i would still try to see if your parents will eventually let you try therapy. maybe show them some of the resources you find about how much it can help you. you can request a Christian therapist too to ensure your values are respected. i did. my therapist is wonderful.

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 36w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 35w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

Username: Jesuslover28

Date posted: 19w ago

ROCD

Hello all, so I have been struggling with intrusive thoughts that come against God and his spirit. And I can't tell if it's me anymore or OCD. Sometimes I'll get one bad thought about his spirit And then the thoughts just stick around scaring me And confusing me. I keep getting super hot and feel like I'm on fire. What if these thoughts are coming from me is my biggest fear and idk what to do about it. Idk who I am anymore and I'm worried that I am a bad person. What if these thoughts stick around forever and I will never recover from these thoughts. I'm having trouble excepting that they are intrusive because they scare me so bad I want to be 1000% sure I'm not offending God. But a part of me can't shake the feeling that it is me. I'm scared and nervous and I haven't slept good in almost 3 months. I'm really tired of fighting this and scared at the same time what if It was me all along and that I'm never gonna make it to heaven.

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