phobic

Date posted: 51w

ocd

I cant live with myself I’m too the point I don’t even wanna eat .. wake up bad anxiety.. questioning myself if it’s even intrusive thoughts or ptsd .. I can’t do this

9pay9

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 51w

you’re not alone. you might be experiencing panic disorder which I was diagnosed with. it’s like your already in fight or flight by the time you wake up. You’ll get through it. Try going for a walk around your neighborhood. I found being outside (even for ten minutes) really helps.

Daydreaming

Date posted: 51w

I have been there! I have horrible anxiety when I wake up. It’s really hard when the OCD beast gets ahold of your thoughts. This too shall pass

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

Your not alone

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous I feel like it .. I feel like I did something so bad ..

kovran

Date posted: 51w

twinn but start like forcing yourself to do shi u KNOW u like thats not gonna have any terrible consequences

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@kkroy dude I feel like I’m making everything up and just lying to myself like I had bad intrusive thoughts yesterday and my brains telling me I enjoyed them making me feel like I purposely thought of them to the point idk if I purposely did I tell myself I’d never but my brain is convincing me I did .. I feel sick

Colon:)

Date posted: 51w

It could definitely be both please know you’re not alone! If you can find a therapist who specializes in: anxiety, depression etc whichever you feel or what more information on:) I hope this helps, know you are enough right now so please take it easy do what you can (pace yourself) 🌻

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@Colon:) I had intrusive thoughts while pleasing myself .. I kept taking them out .. and I think as I finished it came back to my mind right when I already was like done .. like during finishing but I’m sure I tried to take it out .. I feel horrible

Colon:)

Date posted: 51w

@phobic SAME!!! ugh 😩 honestly the most exhaustingly-annoying thing to deal with. I’m currently on Luvox and it’s helping control my intrusiveness (I call IT by the way). -degrading -blaming -etc For me IT ~likes to interfere/control/try to have me feel a shame for my sexual desires/the activity altogether. I’ve spent years coping to finally finding a therapist/being open to medication. “I am who I am” “I love myself” “I am proud of my sexuality” These affirmations helped and I still use them every now and then.

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@Colon:) I’m gay🥲 it’s not about my sexuality … but in the moment it was just a face popping up in my head after words it made me think that I thought of something even worse .. my stomach keeps twisting 😕

Colon:)

Date posted: 51w

@phobic Ohhh 😯 understandable though I’m not sure I can relate…say something that could alleviate your specific situation. Just know you’re not alone 💚it’s safe space!

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@Colon:) Ykw maybe I’m tripping I don’t even think I pictured it in my head when I was finishing it think it was morly during it but I kept taking the thought out of my head then tripped out after thinking I pictured it when I finished ..

Colon:)

Date posted: 51w

@phobic It’s completely normal to feel however you feel but remember you have nothing to be nor feel ashamed of. Acknowledge and move forward regardless if intrusiveness likes it or not.

phobic

Date posted: 51w

@Colon:) Thank u❤️ I’m sure if I was a bad person I wouldn’t feel this bad..

Colon:)

Date posted: 51w

@phobic 🥹🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

Hi I want to share my experiences with you guys I am still suffering I have instusive thought to cheat my husband whatever I do anything my mind say go to another boy I am obsessed with this thought and it's is disturbing my hole life am pregnant 7 month and this thought coming to me go to another boy whatever I do this thought pop into my mind and give me a-lot of anxiety and distress I am exacting all the time what happening to me I don't know why I have instusive thought from 2021 4 years it's being now I got stuck in a loop and thought thought coming again and again whatever I do this problem is started before my marriage I was struggling and then I got married my instusive thought get under control and I am happy with my husband for a 6 month then suddenly this month it came back I was watching instragram and one boy came and my mind say he is very beautiful and suddenly my mind got panic what I am thinking my husband is very beautiful why this thought came into my mind and then it started whatever I do anything that thought come into my mind go to another boy I don't know why I am struggling from it too much it disturbing my hole life my marriage life also I don't know is this ocd or what?😭💔

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 25w

I don’t want to keep doing this

some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame

eea

Date posted: 22w

Help

Lately I have been having really really bad existential ocd the thoughts and compulsions never stop they are even in my dreams I resist compulsions as long as I can but I just want this to go away I keep thinking about how many hours in a day people would have if they weren’t like me I just feel so awful every second I feel like I’m living a double life I only know about I just want this to all go away

justsomone1

Date posted: 12w

ocd or phycosis?

idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have

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