Hello everyone

Hi, I'm Sky. I'm not 100% sure if I have OCD or not. I've had multiple psychiatrist diagnose me with it but also one that said I was misdiagnosed. It does run in my family heavily on my father's side. I was wondering if anyone could talk to me about their experiences with OCD so maybe I can see if I relate. I feel like I suffer from intrusive thoughts but I also struggle with CPTSD and GAD. I find myself obsessing over made up scenarios or problems and I cant think of anything else. I have a lot of routines but I'm not sure if they are OCD related or not. I know this input wouldn't truly tell me if I have it or not and that I should reach out for another professional opinion, and I will. But I'm just trying to reassure myself that it's even worth bringing up. (Cat gif just because it's cute uwu)

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 52w

If multiple psychiatrists have diagnosed you, it sounds like you have plenty of professional opinions! Were they OCD specialists?

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

Not that I am aware of, At the time I was seeking help with PTSD and gender issues primarily, so unfortunately I didn't seek out psychiatrist who specialized in OCD specifically. But they had all worked with people with OCD.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous I would speak with an OCD specialist, as they're best suited for that kind of thing. NOCD itself has a ton; it's where I got therapy from.

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous Definitely, thank you and I appreciate the recommendation.

DancingDingo

Date posted: 52w

i check things a lot, scratch even when im not itchy, and im constantly trying "balance" myself. i also used to have "background noise" until i got medicine, which i didnt realise i had until it stopped. that and the stuff you mentioned. also im loving the cat gif btw :3

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

I kinda do similar things to that as well. I feel like I do have a few abnormal compulsions. I feel like I may have some overlap with some of my other mental health issues though. I probably should definitely get another professional opinion. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. And I know right? C:

DancingDingo

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous yes, mental disorders play off of eachother all the time! ive heard ocd and adhd be used as examples of this all the time (i have both). but yeah i would say definitely get a professional opinion, i dont know everything lol

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 52w

Can you be explicit about the thoughts that bother you the most currently?

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

They can be kinda bad. I have violent thoughts sometimes about hurting myself or others.. Thoughts about sleeping with people that I definitely should not think of in that way. Thoughts about my partner cheating in horrible ways, sexual thoughts that I would definitely never act on that scare me. Thoughts and extreme fear about literally anyone SAing my son. But there is actually alot. Some of it I'm not even comfortable talking about. But that's some of it..but none of it lines up with my personal morals and values but it scares me that they stay in my mind. Like I'm secretly a horrible and terrible person.

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous The topics all sound egodystonic, which is a hallmark of OCD thoughts. In GAD the topics are usually about everyday normal human worries which these are not. So if I were you I would first fully focus on finding an OCD therapist and do OCD therapy. Until you have found one go onto the website of the IOCDF and search for their self help book recommendations. Pick one and work through it on your own. This will accelerate your recovery and gives you a head start if you begin therapy at some point you already know all the basics.

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