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These days I was on quora and I saw a post thtat said that porn addiction doesn't exist, and porn is healthy, and I was like "No?!?!?". Because the post said that some people watch like, incest porn because they like it and not because of an addiction. But 90% of people with porn addiction don't find the content they watch attractive, and after watching it, they feel disgusted and regret it, and that's a sign of addiction, you watch all those things like, incest porn, bdsm and etc ... not because you like them, but because your body just wants to feel something stronger that common porn can't offer anymore.

Anonymous ✨🪬

Date posted: 1y

I looked back all the things I used to watch and yeah. It's horrible. These titles are weird ASF. I gagged to all of them and my stomach dropped. If felt dread and lightheaded. And all the actors, after quitting porn myself, just look like lumps. I felt nothing. Just even more numb. And honestly I didn't even find it attractive to begin with that now I look back at it. It was just... something I did through the motions. Something my mind was used to and desisitized to. I honestly started crying after realizing what I'd did to myself. I've been like this since I was 3 years old. Regret. So much regret and pain. I knew people are not gonna believe me and say I'm a liar. And I don't wanna talk about it irl because people judge as I'm scared. I feel people might judge me here to but only I know my truth at this point.

Anonymous ✨🪬

Date posted: 1y

Also I kinda stopped after I realized that it was actually just keeping my mind even more sexualized at that age and that it was actually disturbing my actual thought process. Ah! I feel like I'm being annoying. I'll stop now.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous ✨🪬 Don't feel this way! I really want to hear more, people seem to never be truly honest about porn addiction and how it truly is bad.

Anonymous ✨🪬

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous It's because people encourage porn as a whole. I personally don't condone it. Never will. People should form connections. I even realized that most of my time was spent doing nothing but search up sexual stuff that I find disgusting actually. I read on the internet about the negatives of the Sexual Revolution. I actually agreed more on the cons than the pros. There's a book about it too. I do think back to all of it and it wasn't worth it. This definitely caused my HOCD and real events OCD. It's horrible. The scary thing about the whole thing is that I never knew that it was problem because it was so normal to me. And when you get hat realization that is a problem and you actually didn't like any of it and everything just Poof! I got clarity. I felt scared but I feel free now even if I'm still suffering from possible OCD. I just wish there was more restrictions on pornography to young children and I wish people would just watch their kids too but that's never gonna happen. That's the sad truth. I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself. I don't think I'll ever get over it. I sometimes have the urge and I get easily triggered. I removed any sexual stuff from my feed on any social media platform that I have and made sure I put restrictions on certains things on my phone too.

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous ✨🪬 Sorry about taking so long!

Anonymous

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous ✨🪬 I totally agree! I feel so disgusting, porn ruined how I see family relationships and honestly I find incest to be disgusting but somehow it still causes this unwanted arousal and I just want to throw up! I really regret it all.

Anonymous ✨🪬

Date posted: 52w

@Anonymous Hi! No your ok. 👍Porn definitely made me think I wanted something. Basically false desires/attraction and when I realized I didn't want these thoughts I started spiraling. I also couldn't stop imagining something sexual everytime, and I mean every time, I laid down in certain ways because a porn memory/ image would come up. It was normal to me because I've been doing it since I was young. It was a habit everyday. People say it's normal to have these thoughts or whatever but for me it wasn't, because it went against my morals and values and because I came up on a video on YouTube about porn and the issues with what it could do to your brain. That's what got me and I started questioning everything. I still cry a lot because I normalized the thoughts.😞 I just had a really sexualized mind when ,again, was really young and porn did not help my urges to constantly think about these thoughts. It made it worse. Im honestly sad to say that was probably my only source of entertainment.:(

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous ✨🪬 I just want to say, it was not your fault! A child should be protected, not exposed this way! I believe that as long as you understand your situation and understand how harmful porn is, you can get better! It is truly hard, but I believe it is worth it.

Abuchs

Date posted: 15w

FUCK please help me what is wrong with me

I am a girl's in my twenties. I got diagnosed with OCD last year. I have a boyfriend, sadly we're long distance right now. I've liked boys all my life. It's very difficult to sustain intimacy in a long distance relationship. Sometimes I have intimate calls with my boyfriend and it's nice. Other times, however, (and I am not proud of it) I do watch porn. I started watching porn when I was 16. I've tried to quit it many times but every couple of weeks I go back to it. And as everyone knows, one of the MANY problems with it is that your brain will always ask for more. More taboo things, more explicit things. I have a daddy kink. I've roleplayed with my boyfriend and watched porn of this kink. Now, the thing is that my brain keeps telling me that I won't orgasm unless I think of little girls being ab*sed. I've never looked for that on the internet, I never want to either. I am under EXTREME DISTRESS, because what my brain tells me feels SO REAL, and it's like my pleasure gets blocked and that contributes to me thinking my brain must be right. It wasn't like this before. I want to go back. I'm scared it will be like this forever now.

POCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Intentional intrusive thoughts during pleasure and masterbation

Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l

genicrop09

Date posted: 14w

21+ only

TW: porn mentioned When I was younger around 18-19 or maybe younger, I stumbled across some porn labeled as 'teen'. I don't remember if I watched it or get scared away by 'teen', but I then searched for porn something like '18-teen years old', I wanted to make sure it was legal. Now I'm spiraling that I did it because I wanted to see someone younger. Or what my intentions could possibly be? It happened for once or I cannot remembered searching something similar ever again. I've always preferred bigger more masculine men, but why I did that then? I had active porn addiction since I was 9 or I'm afraid younger, watched some things that I regret watching... And now I'm 23 and don't watch it all for like 3 years, because I found out that it was unethical. When I was little I preferred BDSM porn and everyone was very mature and I did not watched anything questionable with real people, but some weird fictional stuff, but didn't like it. Now that I remember this I'm very confused and don't know how to continue living with that. I'm just done...

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