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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Reassurance??!!
I guess I'm seeking reassurance, but please tell me these horrible images are just the OCD and doesn't mean who I am
I guess I'm seeking reassurance, but please tell me these horrible images are just the OCD and doesn't mean who I am
If you don't want the images and they're intrusive, you know the answer. No reassurance from me. Stay strong 💪
Thank you... it's so hard. I'm so scared
@Speckles I know 😞. I'm here if you want to vent though. I'll listen
@Wolfram Thank you Wolfram! I need to vent. I feel sick to my stomach from it. It's affecting me physically now too. My images have me so scared of myself. I'm trying to talk myself off the ledge. I have therapy tomorrow and she has me writing out it's just an image... no need to respond. Writing it over and over, but it doesn't seem to be helping bc I have to bring up the disgusting image in my head when I don't want it there in the first place.
@Speckles I know it's tough. All you want to do is walk away from it, but that's not worked before right? I find it's something you need to walk through as painful as it may be and don't give up until you get through to the other side. If you're struggling today, go over it with your therapist tomorrow to help work on motivation or goals to get you through it. I found having a goal greater than the suffering was something that helped me. You may already have one but forget it when the overwhelming emotions kick in.
@Wolfram Thanks! Good idea. I'll go over it with her tomorrow and maybe set up some new goals. This feels so unbearable at times. I've wasted hours ruminating when there is so much that needs to be done. Housework and stuff. I've let things go bc of it
@Speckles You're not alone with that. Good luck mate 😊
@Wolfram Thanks... enjoy talking to you Wolfram. ♥ it helps more than you know!
Hi I want to share my experiences with you guys I am still suffering I have instusive thought to cheat my husband whatever I do anything my mind say go to another boy I am obsessed with this thought and it's is disturbing my hole life am pregnant 7 month and this thought coming to me go to another boy whatever I do this thought pop into my mind and give me a-lot of anxiety and distress I am exacting all the time what happening to me I don't know why I have instusive thought from 2021 4 years it's being now I got stuck in a loop and thought thought coming again and again whatever I do this problem is started before my marriage I was struggling and then I got married my instusive thought get under control and I am happy with my husband for a 6 month then suddenly this month it came back I was watching instragram and one boy came and my mind say he is very beautiful and suddenly my mind got panic what I am thinking my husband is very beautiful why this thought came into my mind and then it started whatever I do anything that thought come into my mind go to another boy I don't know why I am struggling from it too much it disturbing my hole life my marriage life also I don't know is this ocd or what?😭💔
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Thank you... that does help. I'm really struggling, so thanks for your post
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
Hi everyone, I was sitting thinking about my ex texting me.. we are truly friends and haven’t thought about anything more between us.. but I was fantasizing about what he might be texting me about. I was thinking “oh maybe he is going to text me and say that he is still in love with me… or since he is bi-sexual, maybe he is going to tell me that he has HIV..” I immediately felt horrible because that is a stereotype about the gay community that is completely false and it was a horrible thing to think… I tried to say “that was a horrible thought to have and you have never had a thought like that before, just don’t do it again.” But I am so ashamed and my OCD is telling me that the bad guys is going to get me… can someone please assure me that I am not a terrible person? I know that we shouldn’t be seeking reassurance but I am struggling
Hello. I joined this app because I realised my experiences might be due to OCD. I often have these really disgusting and terrible pictures of me becoming someone horrible, doing horrible things to others. These ideas really disturb me, and often in my mind, and physically sometimes, I literally scream quitely to myself, "Shut up!" Over and over until the image goes away, but unless I distract myself with something else immediately after, it comes back and gets worse. I also end up looking back on these thoughts, and being terrified that maybe I am thinking of this because it is what I truly want, so I end up desperately trying to filter my thoughts, and this ends up carrying into something like SO-OCD, even though I am confident that I am a straight male, and there is no evidence that I am not, I keep trying to prove to myself that I am straight to make the thought go away. I also get the fear that after I maybe do something and say something I know I maybe shouldn't have to someone, that when they leave, or I can't find them for a bit, they have gone to commit suicide. Likewise, I also get intrusive thoughts of me killing myself, even though I have no desire to, and this scares me a lot as well. I used to occasionally get these thoughts in chunks like maybe for 2 weeks and then I wouldn't for another few weeks, but they have gotten worse and more frequent this past semester. They are still not bad enough to actively effect my daily life and routine, but they definitely come frequently enough to distract me, disrupt what I'm doing and make me take a break, and it has dramatically effected my mood and mental state lately. Do you guys recommend any ways to deal with this, is this really severe enough to even call OCD? Would love to hear, thanks! ❤️
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