Reassurance??!!

Thank you... it's so hard. I'm so scared

@Speckles I know 😞. I'm here if you want to vent though. I'll listen

@Wolfram Thank you Wolfram! I need to vent. I feel sick to my stomach from it. It's affecting me physically now too. My images have me so scared of myself. I'm trying to talk myself off the ledge. I have therapy tomorrow and she has me writing out it's just an image... no need to respond. Writing it over and over, but it doesn't seem to be helping bc I have to bring up the disgusting image in my head when I don't want it there in the first place.

@Speckles I know it's tough. All you want to do is walk away from it, but that's not worked before right? I find it's something you need to walk through as painful as it may be and don't give up until you get through to the other side. If you're struggling today, go over it with your therapist tomorrow to help work on motivation or goals to get you through it. I found having a goal greater than the suffering was something that helped me. You may already have one but forget it when the overwhelming emotions kick in.

@Wolfram Thanks! Good idea. I'll go over it with her tomorrow and maybe set up some new goals. This feels so unbearable at times. I've wasted hours ruminating when there is so much that needs to be done. Housework and stuff. I've let things go bc of it

@Speckles You're not alone with that. Good luck mate 😊

@Wolfram Thanks... enjoy talking to you Wolfram. ♥ it helps more than you know!

Thank you... that does help. I'm really struggling, so thanks for your post