OCD Tricking Me into Feeling Depressed?

Yall. Does your ocd make you become so scared of depression, that your imagination tricks you into thinking you’re depressed?! Cause I know I’m not depressed ( I think) I love my life my family sports and I’m constantly just wanting to be busy. But sometimes my imagination tricks me into thinking I’m feeling depressed. I also think I’m an empath, and lots of my friends are real deal depressed. So my mind is questioning itself, even though there is no reason to. I look forward to the future, have fun with my family, yet I feel like the trying to feel depressed to prepare yourself to feel depressed is almost a constant. Also usually these trying to feeling depressed episodes flare up when we are doing fun things. Like eating out or spending time together. The only time that I don’t fall into a mind trick is when I’m playing sports. My mind sometimes can be clear a whole day and suddenly we do something all together that’s nice and the fear of depression fear of myself flares up! Anyone else relate?

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

Yeah I was doing this today. I am not depressed, but was worrying about being depressed. Sounds like OCD ;)

Anais V

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous It’s so hard. Does your mind trick you into feeling like a depressed person too?!

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

It’s not that your mind is tricking you. Like you said, you know that you are not depressed. But you can’t know 100% because we can’t really know anything 100%. What’s really happening is that you are uncomfortable with the uncertainty of whether you are depressed or not. Maybe you should respond to that uncertainty with “maybe I am, maybe I’m not, either way, I’m going to continue with my day and do what I want to do”

Anais V

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous Thank you! I will try using this. I am completely uncomfortable with uncertainty of becoming depressed. It makes sense because this summer all this fear of depression came on hard. I heard about all my friends who were and are depressed which led me to question myself. Like “am I depressed” and it became an obsession! It makes me panic when we are doing enjoyable things as a family, like eating or talking or shopping and my mind feels like it turned a switch.

Anonymous

Date posted: 51w

@Anais V Yep OCD likes to pop up when we don’t want it to. It likes to bully us. I like to be a bully back sometimes. Laugh in its face. *haha OCD I actually want to be depressed in fact there is nothing I would love more than to be depressed because all my friends are depressed and being depressed is cool these days so bring it on*

Anais V

Date posted: 51w

@Anonymous Wow! Thank you! You have been so helpful. It really does like to bully in the best moments! I see this now! My biggest problem is knowing when it’s coming on because sometimes I don’t see it in the fun moments until it’s too late lol! Thank you! And I am also gonna use what you just wrote about coming at the negative though, instead of just obsessing over it constantly!

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Date posted: 51w

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Anais V

Date posted: 51w

@abbyns Thank you so much! Well it’s my biggest fear for it to be depression lol so I am meditating and listening to anti depression music and journaling and all of that stuff! I’m trying to prevent it from happening so bad! But omg it just takes over sometimes, and I feel like I could be depressed! Especially in the best moments! How do you cope?

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd tips

so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd advice?

Anonymous2212

Date posted: 20w

False Memory/ ROCD

I am diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, and mild depression. But my OCD symptoms are so prominent in my daily life where it feels debilitating. It comes in waves, there will be months with very minor symptoms and other times where it comes in random hitting me like a truck making me rethink life. I grew up having intrusive thoughts of all types, and a lot of them sent me over the edge because I couldn’t understand why things of such sort would cross my mind, things that I’m sure to this day that I’m incapable of or would never want to actually do. Yet I find myself in a constant cycle of trying to dig deep in the past and trying to figure out if I ever acted on any of the intrusive thoughts I can remember, yet ofc have no recollection of acting on them because they most likely didn’t happen. However, not having concrete proof of these things makes me not want to see another day sometimes. It is so hard to move into daily basis like this. I’m also in a happy healthy relationship and sometimes I get these thoughts of “what if I’ve done something awful during the relationship (for example, cheat, dishonesty, etc.) and can’t remember?” I know I would never do anything intentionally to harm my relationship and I think that maybe the idea of not having my partner sends me down a rabbit hole to think all these things. This mental fight is getting harder and harder. It feels unbearable. Does anyone have some fruit for thought, relate, or have any tips?

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