someone reach out

hi, can I bring up issues with sa themes? if not I understand if it is a trigger

@Jam&Butterfly okay thank you so much. no he has not broken the boundary at all, and even apologies if he doesn't remember to ask about simple things like caressing specific parts of my body and immediately stops to make sure I'm still comfortable and not in any sexual situations either, just in general. it makes me feel safe when he makes sure to stop and ask even if I was okay with it and didn't even realize myself. I just feel so bad also for having these fears about him. I feel like throwing up and I'm so shaky. I haven't had fears about something actually terrible since I got over a different ocd subtype. i went back and screenshoted out texts even after our conversation but even reading them didn't help but I said all the same things about having our boundaries and just making sure it never happens again.

@Jam&Butterfly thank you so much for responding I feel so panicked and it feels so wrong to bring up to my boyfriend almost sickening.

@Jam&Butterfly thank you so so much

@Jam&Butterfly hey I'm sorry but also I can't help but think about that he asked if he could give me oral fully before that happened and I said no just because I wasn't super in the mood for that in particular and then he asked if he could kiss and I said yeah and then the licking happened and I'm just still scared something bad actually happened? I've been avoiding thinking about it so much because it makes me anxious that my thoughts would latch onto it but what if something bad did actually happen