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- 5y
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- 5y
I feel like you a lot. Some days it makes me a mess and some days I just keep on. You are not alone. And you will be alright. The thing that keeps my sanity is the fact that I dont have to define anything. I think that definitions are the enemy of OCD.
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- 5y
Hey Naj, stick with the treatment, its not a quick fix it will take time to fully kick in and for you to see the benefits, dont let the OCD make you doubt your treatment or abandon it. I know how you feel about not feeling ‘your old self’ but remember you are still you, you are still who you always were, and you will be you forever, all thats changed is that you have been expiriencing intrusive thoughts. It happens to millions of people, and it can be unsettling and scary for all of us , but just remember it doesnt change who you and suddenly make you different! The key to helping yourself is to not fight with the thought, allow them to come and go like the thousands of other meaningless thoughts that happen over our lives! Wishing or wanting to go back in time will make them worse, accepting them and knowing they are a normal thing, no matter how strange they feel, will eventually make them feel Less and less strange and upsetting! Maybe try mindfulness meditation alongside your treatment, it wont get rid or clear the thoughts, thats not the aim, but it will teach you how to let thoughts come and go without beating yourself up or being judgemental... I hope things get better for you, stay safe and remember to never give up!
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- 5y
Thank you ❤️
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- 5y
i have the same exact thing oml
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- 5y
I have this, as well as false memories
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- 24w
Struggling with TOCD has probably been the hardest theme I’ve had to deal with so far For reference. I’m a gay male 20yr old Before this theme I was so open with my gender expression, love drag and used to do it for a time. A lot of my friends are trans women and my whole life is queer When this theme hit. It’s like I completely lost who I was. Questioning everything I enjoyed, not participating in anything because it triggered me so heavily. I went through a whole gender journey awhile back and the trans path never spoke to me when I looked into it. I love my physique and my face but now when I look into the mirror i feel like a shell of who I was. I can’t find any sort of pure enjoyment without the accompanying “what if” or “you’re this” intrusive thought I still enjoy how I look. I’ve not looked in the mirror and felt like anything is missing from me or needs to be taken away I just feel like a spectator in my life while this disease tells me I’m not who I know myself to be I affirm myself every day I know who I am and it may change in the future but that’s not important. It’s highly unlikely it will but it may! Giving into the uncertainty has been so hard but it’s worth it! My ocd has really picked up since getting into my first serious relationship I care about my boyfriend with my whole heart but over the course of our relationship my themes have included Health Relationship Irreality Harm I just want to be who I was again before this current theme it feels unbearable to live like this BUT! I’m seeking appropriate treatment and not giving into a majority of compulsions I just wanted to write this to see if anyone can relate and if they do. Know that you will overcome this! I know I will and you will too
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 23w
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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- 23w
I miss when I wasn't ruminating 24/7, waking up with horrible anxiety or spending all day doing compulsions. Even when I try so hard to resist them I just end up in a spiral. I miss when I was comfortable in my nonbinary identity and didn't have TOCD and now everything feels wrong and conflicting. I miss when I wasn't depressed and disabled. I know I can never get that person back. I haven't seen that person since high school. Ive spent years with this disorder and i havent gotten better despite therapy and meds. I don't know if I'll ever be happy again.
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