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Hocd
I don’t know if I have hocd anymore or just gay anytime I hang out with friend make me question if I’m even straight and when someone say or call em gay I starting questioning stuff
I don’t know if I have hocd anymore or just gay anytime I hang out with friend make me question if I’m even straight and when someone say or call em gay I starting questioning stuff
Is it sexual orientation OCD ? I think it’s also cashed SOOCD?
@Tea and Honey What is cashed soocd
@JohnKit lol, I meant to say, “called SO OCD”
@JohnKit But it looks like Nathan Peterson (the person I referenced in YouTube below). also called it HOCD.
@Tea and Honey Ya I watch the video
@JohnKit I think this struggle is common
@Tea and Honey I don’t know anymore
@JohnKit Did you watch the video? Did it help?
@Tea and Honey Actually it did help alot
@Tea and Honey Help me claim down
@JohnKit Nathan Peterson has a lot of videos that might help. He also has an online course that you can take yourself
@JohnKit Don’t worry!! You just have a certain subtype of OCD. We all have OCD on this app. There are all sorts of subtypes, and it’s all the same thing. You can get better!!!
@Tea and Honey I got a question tho
@JohnKit Sure. What’s your question?
@Tea and Honey I forgot bruh
@JohnKit Lol
@JohnKit Just remember, you will get better if you do what the therapists tell you to do. Listen to the therapists, and listen to Nathan Peterson ands DO WHAT THEY TELL YOU TO DO. Go forward in life and apply what is taught. It seems scary. It doesn’t feel safe. But this is one sure way that we will get better and better!!!
@Tea and Honey I don’t have a therapist
@JohnKit Have you looked into NOCD? They are all online, and they take a lot of insurance. If not, I would just watch Nathan Peterson’s videos in YouTube. Then you can just be diligent to put into practice the things that he says. :):)
@Tea and Honey Shi cost money
@JohnKit You Tube is free!! :):) Nathan Peterson is good 👍
@Tea and Honey Yeah but sometime I hat he say will trigger my hocd
@JohnKit You can’t get better without risking some triggers. To “avoid” doing something is actually to follow a compulsion. As you recover from OCD, you will have to learn to stop avoiding triggers. A lot of therapy is allowing yourself to get triggered on purpose. :):)
@JohnKit Your HOCD isn’t real. It is just a trick that your OCD is playing. It is okay to get triggered. It is actually good practice for you to get triggered, because then you can practice dealing with it.
@JohnKit If you continue to avoid all triggers, you can never get better. So you have to practice doing things that trigger you. ;)
@Tea and Honey Hey I got a question so I feel like I don’t know or have feeling for woman anymore or forgot what it feel like
@JohnKit Don’t worry. There is something you have got to learn with OCD—and that is YOUR FEELINGS generally DON’T MEAN ANYTHING. If you have feeling, that’s fine. If you don’t have feelings, that’s fine. Don’t expect your feelings to be in the right places. When you have OCD, your feelings are going to be all over the place, and you can’t trust that they are true at all. So don’t worry about your feelings. They don’t matter a bit. Make the decisions that you want to make in life, and then go with that :):)
@JohnKit Feelings are kind of like your thoughts. They don’t matter
@Tea and Honey Hey
@JohnKit Hello!
@Tea and Honey Snap?
@JohnKit Sorry, I don’t have WhatsApp or Snap. Thanks, though!
@Tea and Honey any?
@JohnKit Sorry, I don’t really have anything:):)
@Tea and Honey I just need to talk to someone
@JohnKit Love to talk to you!! Can we talk here?
@Tea and Honey I wanan talk somewhere pv
@Tea and Honey Ok so someone told me to find a Godly find and my feelings went like oh no I don’t want a gf but a bf like no I’m straight
@Tea and Honey I wanan talk somewhere pv
@JohnKit Gotcha:). I understand! I am here whenever you need me!! :):)
@Tea and Honey Read my text
@JohnKit Sorry, I didn’t see that text. Someone told you to find a godly person to date? That is good!! Yes, you should do that! Don’t worry about the thoughts that OCD puts in your head. It doesn’t matter what thoughts it puts in your head. You can make you own decisions and live by those decisions.
@JohnKit It doesn’t matter what thoughts OCD puts in your head. You decide what you want to do
@Tea and Honey Ya but if I keep ignoring the feelings and thoughts won’t that mean I’m in denial?
@JohnKit Nope. It doesn’t mean you are in denial at all. The feelings and thoughts DON’T MEAN ANYTHING because they come from OCD. When you have OCD, you are SUPPOSED to ignore your feelings and thoughts. Ignoring your feelings and thoughts is the only way to conquer OCD. So don’t let OCD trick you by saying you are in denial. You are actually going forward with your life the way you need to. :)
@JohnKit The only way to beat OCD is to ignore the feelings and thoughts. Make the decisions that you want to make—and ignore the feelings and thoughts. It’s the only way
@Tea and Honey OCD is a disorder of thoughts and feelings. You can’t trust them at all
@Tea and Honey Ain’t it also doubt to? Cause I use to have thought about same sex then it was gone then unwanted images then it gone now ir doubt and compulsion
@JohnKit OCD is definitely a disorder of doubt too. It is known to be a disorder of doubt. Just because you have fleeting thoughts in your head, it doesn’t mean anything. Don’t worry about your thoughts. They don’t mean anything!!
@JohnKit When you have OCD, you have to put faith over your thoughts, feelings and doubts. You make the decision THAT is RIGHT, and you go with that decision — and you ignore the doubts the feelings and the thoughts.
@Tea and Honey Remember, OCD is going to lie to you all day. OCD’s job is to torment you and try to trick you and try to lie to you —in order to manipulate you into doing what it wants. Following OCD will make you miserable.
@Tea and Honey Hey I got another question so I was watching this dude catching a Ped talking to a 13 year old boy and they were having a chat about nasty stuff and I think I have a groinal spawn
@Tea and Honey Hello
@JohnKit Groinals don’t mean anything. They are just like the OCD thoughts. None of it means anything. Just ignore it
@Tea and Honey You sureee?
@JohnKit Yep. All of that is meaningless. Just ignore all of it.
@Tea and Honey How am I supposed to ignore it when it keep popping up in my head
@JohnKit It’s GOING to pop up in your head over and over and over. That’s what OCD does. If you don’t care about the thoughts though, they should quiet down over time. So yes: The thoughts will keep popping up. You have to keep ignoring them. It might take a long time. Or it might take a short time. But eventually, the OCD gets “bored” of trying to trigger you with the same thoughts, and the thoughts quiet down.
@JohnKit Just be aware, though, that when you defeat OCD in one area, it will try to bug you in some new area. Don’t be worried when that happens. It’s all just the same tricks of OCD, and you treat every OCD theme in exactly the same way.
@Tea and Honey You got a bf?
@JohnKit Married :):)
@Tea and Honey ??
@JohnKit lol, I don’t have to worry about relationship problems because I am married. Marriage is nice because it is more secure than dating, and then the OCD can’t mess with it very much, and that makes life easier.
@Tea and Honey Ooo you married I thought you were just like me a young adult I just turn 18 so ya😂
@Tea and Honey Have you told the person who you married to about hocd
@JohnKit I’ve told him everything :):)
@Tea and Honey You probably have a beautiful life and beautiful children but feel like I would never have something like that cause of hocd
@JohnKit I struggle every day, but that’s okay. You don’t have to avoid living life because of HOCD! It doesn’t matter if you have it or not. You get to live the life that you chose to live. Therapy will help A TON!!! ERP therapy will help a ton! They do ERP therapy at NOCD and also with Nathan Peterson’s YouTube channel.
Try this video from Nathan Peterson. It looks like a lot of people struggle with exactly the same thing you are describing: https://youtu.be/clOlsecReow?si=7Z-rEHNu1E4tKLqE
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
I don’t know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i haven’t got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they don’t bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and that’s what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.
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