I need y'all's help ASAP

But what if I'm hurting the holy Spirit it feels like I am and idk what to do I'm becoming cynical towards Jesus and I don't want to hurt him I want my love for them back

@Jesuslover28 Go with all your worries to God. Don’t worry God isn’t hurt by you, God loves you dearly and does for you. Whenever you feel like you hurt God remember his sacrifice on the cross and how that shows that he ultimately loves you and would never abandon you no matter what you do.

@Okay101 Ik how much he loves me but yet I just feel like I'm in the middle of something much bigger than ocd, I'm really trying to focus on positive things about holy Spirit and God, but I can't and my mind wants to resort back to negativity and idk what to do. My mind keeps screaming at me saying I don't believe in God or that I don't want a relationship with him which isn't true, and I'm scared my heart is hardening against God and I don't know what to do as I type this my heart and mind feel like they are working against me and God and idk what to do I don't want to be separated from God

@Jesuslover28 Ive went through the exact same thing, don’t you think that your worry is the exact same thing that proves that you love Jesus? If you didn’t care then your heart was already hardened, but no, you are actively worrying because you love Jesus so much. God sees that and he loves you so much, pray with all your anxieties and he hears you even if it doesn’t feel like it

@Okay101 But see Reading that then makes my mind try to convince me it's not true, or that I'm faking it idk how to explain it like I cry reading it because it's the truth but my mind just trys to give me emotions or something that trys to prove its not true

But I think I rejected the holy Spirit and God I'm really freaking out I'm trying hard to focus on Jesus but my mind keeps trying to dissect everything and idk what to do I feel doomed and I'm freaking out

@Jesuslover28 I’ve been there! The verse about rejecting the Holy Spirit is actually about not choosing him at all. It’s the utter rejection and denial that can only be final if we are standing at the pearly gates. One thing that helps me is asking Jesus to help me slow my thoughts. I try to picture them as clouds. Some are dark and scary and really really intense, but like all storms, they pass. You are like the sky, it never changes based on the clouds. So are your thoughts! They do not change who you are in essence! If you rejected the Holy Spirit, you would not have the concern! Trust me as someone who did reject him and later came back, you don’t think about it. It’s not a worry or concern. That thought is not true. Sometimes we just have to look at those intrusive thoughts and say “you are not true. Peace is my portion.” It’s really hard at first, but it gets easier with practice! Ground yourself in his word! He says in Romans that nothing can separate you from His love! Our brains are designed to confirm our thoughts and beliefs. It’s why it’s important to label the intrusive thoughts as not true! You have choice! And Jesus would NEVER turn away someone who was choosing him💛

@Shei But idk what to do why is it when I read these articles my mind wants to do it idk what to do the holy Spirit doesn't deserve it and I want to be afraid of hurting him so it's never a possibility

@Jesuslover28 That’s the nature of OCD! You can’t shame yourself into change/healing. Even if it doesn’t feel true right now, it’s important to remind yourself of what is true! Philippians 4 is a huge grounding chapter for me, especially in this area. The only thing the Holy Spirit wants is honesty! There is nothing you could do to shock them or scare them away. He is not fickle! Jesus knew everything you would ever do and still died on the cross for you! His blood covers a multitude of sins. OCD loves to tell us uncertainty is not safe and we have to push or avoid anything that would make us uncertain. But they are simply thoughts and are not true.