I'm doomed like actually

I've read it but I think I committed the unforgivable sin I think I rejected God my heart feels hard and I think I turned into a unbeliever and now I'm really freaking out I just want to go to Jesus already

@Jesuslover28 - You read it but you didnt absorbe it. you are explaining EXACTALLY what is means to have Religious OCD. and you are feeding your fears because you are trying to think your way out of them. If you read the article, then what did it say you need to do to overcome your OCD?

@TexasOCD41 ERP but that is too scary I don't want to try and not disprove the thoughts they are too nasty

@Jesuslover28 - For example, some common intrusive thoughts and questions that people with Scrupulosity OCD may focus on include: Am I doing things the right way? Am I committing a sin? Will God still forgive me if I make a mistake in my prayer? Did I say something offensive during class? Am I making God mad by doing this? Have I disappointed God somehow? This is a direct quote from the article. And this is what all of your posts center around. you fear you have made God mad and that you have sinned and are lost forever. You NEVER stop to consider ALL of your fears are OCD and that GOD knows this...He knows what you suffer from. I am a Christian too an di have worried in the past " did I commit the one unforgivable sin?" and iv looked very hard into this and learned that the only unforgivable sin is to blasphme the Holy Spirit. you have to TRY to do this.. you have to do it with ALOT of intention and purpose and thought, there can be NO questioning of it. It was made to be extremely difficult to do so that good people and people who struggle cant do it by mistake in our moments of weakness.

@TexasOCD41 Ik but when I read these things why does my mind instantly start wanting to do it idk what to do or what is happening to me

@Jesuslover28 - you have to. it is the only way you will be released from this devil. The Lord alls us to face our devils does He not? He calls us to be brave and walk by faith and trust in Him. This means you have to have faith that you are suffering from a mental disorder, that these thoughts do not represent YOU and that you do not need to keep giving them all this attention because it is feeding the beast that is your OCD. you don't have to agree with your thoughts. just.... starting with this. please. just try it. when you get these thoughts of sinning, losing God, being cast out, all of it. just say " I am not going to waste my time to disprove these thoughts, I will let them pass on the wind" and sit in that fear, sit with the beast screaming in your face that you're a bad person, that you MUST pay attention to it. Stand brave in the face of the liar that Is OCD and keep telling it " I'm not going to waste my time or give you any more attention" and get back to what ever you are doing in the moment. THIS IS THE ONLY WAY you will beat this because In time... the thoughts will start to become more quite, less frequent, less painful, and you will eventually realise they are not you. YOU are NOT YOUR thoughts.

@TexasOCD41 But why do they feel like I like them and that they are me, what does that mean

@Jesuslover28 - It is because you have a mental illness. your brain has a thought disorder. it is scientific. Brain scans show differences in people with OCD and normal brains. you DO know what to do you just don't WANT to because you are scared and that's understandable but it is the only way. You must allow yourself to help yourself, allow me to guide you. stop resisting because you are scared. you are going to be ok! you ARE ok you are just struggling.

@Jesuslover28 - That is called a "Cognitive Distortion" According to the American Psychological Association, a cognitive distortion is an inaccurate way of thinking. This is a fairly typical mental process that occurs in all people to varying degrees. The brain creates these mental filters as shortcuts to reduce the burden of processing lots of information at once. However, this can cause oversimplifications of complex thoughts, which can make a person feel badly about themselves. According to a 2021 studyTrusted Source, cognitive distortions can contribute to the development and worsening of mental health conditions such as depression. Learning to identify cognitive distortions can help a person reframe their thinking and improve their mood.

@Jesuslover28 - and specifically you are experiencing a phenomenon called " ego-dystonic thinking" The term ego-dystonic is a fancy way of explaining thoughts that are out of sync with who you are and what you believe and value, Kilduff explains. https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/ocd-stats-and-science/what-are-ego-dystonic-thoughts-how-experts-use-the-term

@TexasOCD41 - https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/cognitive-distortions#types

@TexasOCD41 Do u have a social media account or some sort

@Jesuslover28 - I prefer to keep my personal life separate from my therapy life.

@Jesuslover28 - Read those articles i sent you about egodystonic and cognitive distortions. I think the first obstical you need to overcome to to understand exactly what is going on in your brain and what OCD is and what it does. I don't think you can move forward until you really grasp these things. If you have a question or need to talk to me just reply to one of our most recently conversations and ill respond.

@TexasOCD41 What if I never believed in God, ik u said to sit in the thoughts, but ik faith is not about feelings, but I don't feel like I ever believed in God and idk what to do I don't want to be a unbeliever

@Jesuslover28 - Right now, you're job is not to ask ANY statement that begins with " what if" because THAT is how EVERY SINGLE OCD thought begins. RIGHT NOW, your job is not to try to solve any "what if" or figure anything out. you said " but I don't feel like I ever" FEELINGS are not facts. You are falling into another cognitive distortion called "Emotional reasoning: A person with emotional reasoning will allow their emotions to dictate what they believe as truth, without paying attention to the facts in front of them."-direct quote from that article I sent you.

@TexasOCD41 Ok u caught me 🤣 but it's just so hard I feel like I'm struggling with inadequacy and that good also be a problem

@Jesuslover28 - And this is not about your faith, this is not about if you believe in God or not. This is about your struggle with OCD which is making you pay attention to thoughts that EVERYONE thinks but normal people discard them because they know they are not a representation of who they are. the average person has 60,000 thoughts a day and not ONE of those is a thought that was controlled. The thoughts actually don't matter. Your response is the only thing that matters and as long as you continue to respond emotionally, with fear and anxiety, you will continue to feed the fears.

@Jesuslover28 - everyone is inadaquate. you laugh but i don't think you understand how important it is to read what I send you. If you come on this form and ask for help but refuse the resources, you will only continue to struggle. I beat OCD because I did what I was afraid to do. i had thoughts of hurting people I loved, I saw images of me doing horrible,violent acts to them. It was awful. it was only when I faced the fear and acknowledge these are just thoughts, they don't represent me, I stopped feeling so distressed. NOW, I can actively bring to mind a thought of hurting someone I love.... and not feel any type of guilt, or shame, or response because I know its just a thought and thoughts are not facts, they don't predict the future, the mean only what ever I allow them to mean, and those thoughts of hurting someone I love, I decided, they mean nothing... and they go away.

@TexasOCD41 I will try your advice but it is probably going to be hard

@Jesuslover28 It will be. But it works.

@TexasOCD41 I need your help. I can't seem to see God clearly right now and idk what to do idk if ocd does that, but I'm trying to focus on God, but my mind feels like it's in a fog and idk what to do, its like my mind won't allow me to believe in God or want me to focus on him. Im really worried I'm hurting God or something and idk what to do

@Jesuslover28 Stop trying to focus on God. You’re fighting the ocd which is what is preventing you from focusing on Him or anything. You sit with the fear that you might be hurting God. You don’t fight or resist it. You sit with it. Re-read that article I sent you about moral ocd and erp.