How should I handle friends who triggered my POCD during a game?

My friends triggered my POCD

Im 18 and Ive had POCD since i was 16. I think ive become very good about dealing with it. Recently ive been able to accept the uncertainty and ive felt almost normal. Me and my friends were playing gartic phone which is a game where someone writes a sentence and you draw an image based off the sentence. It can be really funny because you draw something really dumb. Obviously sometimes the thing is sexual and thats why its funny. But they started going way too far with it and getting references from rule 34 and sending them. I got really uncomfortable and was about to leave then one of them sent some really weird looking drawing i didnt really see properly but it was some weird young looking cartoon drawing. I just left all their group chats and i genuinely dont think i can be friends with them anymore. It goes way back and ive had talking threapy about my ocd before and gotten better. My reaction to this is way less bad than it wouldve been a few years ago, but still now i feel really stressed again. I almost feel like just blocking all them and never speaking to them again irl. What should i do. I dont know who i can talk to about this other than another one of my friends who wasnt playing.

Username: King sillyKing silly

Date posted: 10w ago

Were they purposefully trying to weird you out?

Username: Johnny69Johnny69

Date posted: 10w ago

No not at all. They just thought it was funny. I didnt mind the dumb drawings we did on each others sentences. What i really hated was when they started sending borderline porn. I dont think they knew i hated it. And they sent it because they were basically trying to laugh at how weird and ridiculous it was. But to me i just find it degenerate horrible stuff and i dont want to see anything like that at all.

Username: Johnny69Johnny69

Date posted: 10w ago

I think i posted this as a compulsion looking for some kind of reassurance. After sitting for an hour or so without reassuring myself, i feel a bit better. Im starting to accept, whats happened happened and it was completely out of my control. I still dont think i can talk to them anymore though. They werent a friend though and just a friend of a friend.

Username: jelly

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey so I’m an 18 year old college student I’ve had ocd for a long time but I never wanted to admit this aspect of it as part of it and I still don’t. That’s why I won’t say it cause I’ll just end up crying again. I don’t even want to post about it cause this would just make the problem real. I know I’m not sexually attracted to them but my mind wants to trick me and I end up getting confused on which is rlly me, like the other aspects of my ocd. It spiked ig when someone sent me a meme and it was fine but at the end of it it showed a child being shown in a sexual way which was suppose to I guess be funny but it wasn’t rlly funny to me at all and got uncomfortable and the pocd thoughts came in hard and I had such a bad panic attack and then I felt the need to go back and check to see what I was feeling and went to the video the next day after avoiding it to see which after reading the threads here is I guess a big no no? I know I’m not sexually attracted but my mind is playing these games and confuses me and I’m so scared to even talk to my therapist about it or ask people for help cause what if they think I’m a pedophile? Children genuinely make me happy and I have a motherly instinct to care for them but my mind turns it into something darker and I know I don’t think of these kids sexually but it’s like I have the power to?And that freaks me out so much and it won’t leave me alone I don’t know what to do I know I’m not one but my mind is tricking me and it’s freaking me out and if my mind says it could be what if other people think I am no one I trust will even understand idk what to do I just needed to put this somewhere to vent

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Username: OCDHaver

Date posted: 3y ago

Hey guys, I'm really scared, someone PLEASE reply (POCD 18+) Okay, so tonight I was beginning to feel better about my obsessions and began to feel like maybe I was actually making progress. But I feel terrified rn, I'm scared because I used to watch hentai and cartoon stuff when I was younger, I'm 19, I would look up certain anime stuff or cartoons, but I started feeling happy that I probably stopped when I was 15. But now I'm terrified, I used to watch the tv show Big Mouth on Netflix but stopped after I started feeling uncomfortable with the show since it is really graphic. But I'm scared that I may have watched porn about the show while I was watching it. I don't really have strong memories about it but I'm terrified because that would have been when I was 16. I'm so scared, my friend said that "worst-case scenario, say you did, it's just a drawing at the end of the day" but I'm really scared. I'm really grossed out, I don't know what to do, I was just starting to maybe feel better but I don't even know anymore, I'm terrified, what do you guys think???

Username: Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 46w ago

Please help (18+) I'm anxious

I made a friend recently online and we get along great/talk everyday/etc. But today they told me they've got like an internet stalker who doxxed them and knows where they live and has threatened them and stuff and won't leave them alone. Anyway, not long after someone messaged me saying my friend is actually 12 and is super racist or something, and that they have proof and need me to believe them. I dont interact with minors, it triggers my POCD. Secondly, I'm anxious because I don't want to get involved in drama at ALL. and I'm scared of just blocking them because I'm afraid I'll get doxxed or harassed. My anxiety is really bad, I don't know. I compulsively want to just cut off this friend but they told me they don't have friends because of this so I feel bad. Besides, I do like them as my friend but. I dont know. I'm not built for this kind of thing I just want to be safe.

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