I just started high school and my OCD is horrible. It was bad the couple weeks leading up to it but now it’s even worse. All of the stress triggered my pure OCD and now my brain is believing that I am evil. And now whenever I try to pray I feel I can’t. Then when I try to use ERP, it just feels like I am going against God by saying maybe I’ll letting evil in.
I’m in school rn too and they won’t let me change a class that triggers me and I’m trying so hard to be ok w it and I thought my “ocd” was getting better but it keeps getting harder and I understand what ur going through u are not evil for having thoughts u are not evil for thinking there are people who have done horrible things bad people don’t feel guilty for being bad
Any chance for Erp with a therapist? It can be difficult
@OCDFamily Yes I have been for over a year
@Anonymous Keep working and trying. It is difficult. You are so worth this effort!!
I just said this to someone else with a similar post. I also have scrupulosity. I know what you’re going through. The truth of it is you’re not praising evil, it’s OCD praising itself. The thoughts come in involuntarily and they are not yours. Best to ride out the wave and acknowledge that the thought has come, but it’s not yours, and take comfort in whatever emotional reaction you have that it has no true bearing, no legitimacy, despite how you may feel. Remember, God judges the heart. He knows you, and he knows what’s not you. He knows your pain and sees what you go through, and your faith is not contingent on how you feel, no matter how strong those emotions are. He’s got you, He’s aware of all of it, and his grace is sufficient. The hardest thing with scrupe is learning to trust God knows and loves you, even when it’s hard to love yourself. Also, God knows that it’s hard for you, and that what you’re doing, you’re doing for Him. Someone who was not strong and who was truly evil would turn away, and you haven’t, because you are strong, and you have a yearning for goodness. God understands that what you have to do for ERP is for your relationship with him, even if other people can’t see that or wouldn’t understand.
Can anyone give me advice about having ocd while in school because it’s starting soon and I’m scared that I won’t do my best?
I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m failing school because all I have on my mind is ocd and ocd thoughts. I’ll I think is “what If I’m a murderer” “what If I hurt someone” “no no no I don’t wanna do those things I really don’t”. I feel like it’s getting worse I can’t focus on school anymore and I’m gonna fail this quarter. I wake up and I just wanna sleep because I keep having these thoughts, I’ve been getting nightmares too and I just feel so hopeless and I’m always so anxious about being a bad person. Please help me out here
i’m so caught up in figuring out my obsessions because i don’t want them to come true. i have been obsessing over the devil and whether or not he can possess or control me and it won’t go away. i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired all the time and i don’t feel like myself anymore. i can’t keep up with my schoolwork and can barely take care of myself. i’m also in college so it’s hard being on my own.
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