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I was wondering too
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Chrissie Hodges a Youtuber has made a video about that and also the symptoms that come with it. She really helped me before.
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Alone. I can't afford a therapist bc I'm still a student. So I live day to day hoping it'll fade away eventually. I'm really doing my best to not seek reassurance, but sometimes it just feels too real and I just have to.
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Yeah I understand, I'm in the same boat. I've fallen into depression because of these thoughts ? but I hope we find peace with ourselves soon. Goodluck
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I get this SO much. Especially as my thoughts are sexually intrusive about my mother. The main reason I'm so attached is because I'm SO scared I actually would enjoy it in real life because the thoughts are about me enjoying it rather than me hating It. I have struggled to get past this for years and I saw a CBT therapist a few years ago so it is much more manageable but now I'm actively trying to knock it out the park because after my treatment I forgot to follow up on myself and continue to care for myself and to deal with these thoughts healthily of that makes sense. Just getting over the idea that I actually would/ do in my thoughts enjoy this is SO freaking hard, especially because when my boyfriend does the same things to me and I enjoy it it makes me even more anxious about me enjoying the intrusive thought if that makes sense
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Remember that OCD can make you feel like anything. I experienced everything what you said in this app too.
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Did you get through it?
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Nope unfortunately not. Still get lots of anxiety. But my ocd gave me a new theme about health. So atm I have 2 themes going on. It's a little bit easier to deal with bc I don't get thoughts explicit about hocd.
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Are you seeing a therapist for this or are you trying to cope with it alone?
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Do you masturbate to your exposure or trigger?!
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Cause i find myself doing that as a compulsion
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A couple of times I did because of how sick and tired of the doubt plaguing my mind. I feel super guilty about it too. One more thing for ocd to use against me.
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Feel really bad for you. No one should go through something like this. Lately I tend to forget a lot of things and my head feels really heavy. Do you also experience this? I also wish you the best and goodluck!
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Yes. I do. I can't remember anything anymore. I always feel like I'm disoriented.. Even when I'm not necessarily thinking about the thoughts. My brain chemistry just feels completely off since this all started. I don't feel like myself at all
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I'm really happy that you also feel like this. Don't understand me wrong, but I'm glad I am not the only one and that there is not something terrible going on with us. I know exactly what you mean, and it's very frustrating. Do you take antidepressants?
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I know I am going a bit cuckoo because my period is coming up, but lately it feels like every intrusive thought I have, I *like* it. Like I genuinely feel like I like it, and then I immediately panic because I start checking. Mentally, emotionally, whatever it is. And I know that is a compulsion. I *know* that. But it feels so real that I cannot stop myself. Every single time I check, it still feels like I like the thought, and it is driving me absolutely insane. It is especially the POCD thoughts. They feel so real. I feel like something is going on mentally, like some kind of confusion or glitch, because I swear I was not like this before. I would have intrusive thoughts, and they would feel real, but not *this* real. And I do not even know if this is normal. I know OCD is **supposed** to feel convincing. That is the whole thing. But I have never experienced it to this extreme. I have never gotten the same thought so many times and still felt like, “Oh my God, I did enjoy it,” even after checking a million times. It is like no matter how many times I check, it feels like I liked it. Especially during intimacy :( and it is making me lose it. Then I start thinking, “Well, I am in distress, so maybe that is proof it is not actually me.” But right after, I am like, “What if I am only panicking because I care about what society thinks and not because I actually have morals?” And then I spiral again, wondering if maybe I just care about how I am seen rather than who I am. I am panicking so much no today. I had to take my Xanax today for the first time in two months, and I needed three separate doses. I really need some support right now.
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I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this
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