Please read: Can ocd make you feel like you want it? And enjoy the thoughts? I wouldn't be this distressed if I enjoyed them I know that for a fact but it feels like I do and that terrifies me so so much. I'm really struggling right now and losing hope I HATE my brain so much.

I was wondering too

Chrissie Hodges a Youtuber has made a video about that and also the symptoms that come with it. She really helped me before.

Alone. I can't afford a therapist bc I'm still a student. So I live day to day hoping it'll fade away eventually. I'm really doing my best to not seek reassurance, but sometimes it just feels too real and I just have to.

I get this SO much. Especially as my thoughts are sexually intrusive about my mother. The main reason I'm so attached is because I'm SO scared I actually would enjoy it in real life because the thoughts are about me enjoying it rather than me hating It. I have struggled to get past this for years and I saw a CBT therapist a few years ago so it is much more manageable but now I'm actively trying to knock it out the park because after my treatment I forgot to follow up on myself and continue to care for myself and to deal with these thoughts healthily of that makes sense. Just getting over the idea that I actually would/ do in my thoughts enjoy this is SO freaking hard, especially because when my boyfriend does the same things to me and I enjoy it it makes me even more anxious about me enjoying the intrusive thought if that makes sense

Remember that OCD can make you feel like anything. I experienced everything what you said in this app too.

Nope unfortunately not. Still get lots of anxiety. But my ocd gave me a new theme about health. So atm I have 2 themes going on. It's a little bit easier to deal with bc I don't get thoughts explicit about hocd.

Do you masturbate to your exposure or trigger?!

A couple of times I did because of how sick and tired of the doubt plaguing my mind. I feel super guilty about it too. One more thing for ocd to use against me.

Feel really bad for you. No one should go through something like this. Lately I tend to forget a lot of things and my head feels really heavy. Do you also experience this? I also wish you the best and goodluck!

I'm really happy that you also feel like this. Don't understand me wrong, but I'm glad I am not the only one and that there is not something terrible going on with us. I know exactly what you mean, and it's very frustrating. Do you take antidepressants?