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iโm having really bad relationship anxiety & OCD idk how to get past it :( it ruins my mood & affects the way i view my partner. i want to cry
iโm having really bad relationship anxiety & OCD idk how to get past it :( it ruins my mood & affects the way i view my partner. i want to cry
I'm so sorry you're dealing with this :( I used to get frequent intrusive thoughts about not loving my partner and I constantly worried about and researched if we were compatible. What helped me was to figure out why I was so afraid of not being compatible--which I found out was because I am afraid of being stuck in a relationship that I'm not happy in and not feeling like I can get out. I would then remind myself that I wont get stuck because I have control over the situation and can leave at any time. I also reminded myself that OCD targets the things you value the most, so it really just shows that you care a lot about your partner when you worry. I hope you are able to find peace of mind and relief from all the worries
@mckintosh thank you so much this helped me a ton ๐ฅบ
@๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ค๐ฆ๐ of course, i'm happy to help :)
I used to get this with my partner when we first got together, it was awful, what i did was โtrust the processโ and try my best to disregard the OCD and anxious thoughts, and not try to reason or argue or analyse them
@Doot ๐บ did that help or did they go away eventually?
@๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ค๐ฆ๐ Yep! Im 6months into the relationship and hardly ever get OCD about it anymore, fighting with the thoughts is rumination which is a compulsion - to stop ocd you have to first stop the compulsions ๐ซ
@Doot ๐บ thank u๐ฅบ iโll try my best
Iโm having what I think is my first ROCD full episode. Iโve had doubting thoughts the entirety of my relationship. But in the last couple of days have been overwhelmed with and debilitated by anxiety and the feeling that I need to break up with my boyfriend. I donโt know if I have OCD officially but talking to therapists it seems that it is likely and Iโm going to an OCD specialist next week to talk through my feelings but I feel completely helpless and hopeless at the moment and riddled with anxiety. Iโm in a long distance relationship. I seem to have a waves throughout the day when I want to communicate with my boyfriend and tell him I love him etc. but the other 80% of my day is filled with anxiety and dread that Iโm going to have to break up with him. I just want the anxiety to go away and to know if my thoughts are real thoughts or OCD thoughts. My biggest fear is that this isnโt an OCD episode and I do need to break up with him. Iโm seeing him this weekend and Iโm filled with dread about feeling disconnected and anxious and not in love.
for a few days now Iโve been super anxious about my relationship. Iโve been anxious about it before but lately itโs been worse than normal. Iโm in a very healthy and loving relationship, I love my boyfriend so much and he treats me so so well. The only thing is that Iโve been having scary thoughts that what if Iโm lying to him and donโt actually love him? What if I donโt find him attractive? And like what if the only way to stop being anxious is to break up with him? I donโt want to leave him and I am so scared. I feel like Iโm lying to him by not telling him whatโs going on because he might think Iโm actually going to leave him, which Iโm really not going to. I have had anxiety since before we started dating and incestual and sexual ocd, then I got into a point where I started having religious ocd, and now I have ROCD on top of that I think. Iโve never been diagnosed but Iโm going to therapy and figuring things out but Iโm so scared. Idk what to do and I feel like if I talk to anyone theyโre going to say I have to leave him.
Lately my ROCD has been flaring up, making it difficult to even be around my partner. Iโm having so many troubling thoughts with the one that bugs me most being, โmaybe this isnโt my OCD, maybe Iโm just in a bad relationship and Iโm trying to cover it up and blame it on OCDโ. This thought really scares me because there are valid doubts in my relationship but my boyfriend and I have openly talked about them and are trying to work through. My OCD wonโt take that as an option tho. It makes me feel like I need to be 100% certain that these things can NEVER happen again or else we need to break up immediately. So anything he says in that moment about trying to do better, my OCD will not trust anything he says and just wait until the next โbad thingโ happens. When I continuously bring these things up to my boyfriend even tho nothing has happened between these conversations, it exhausts him making it feel like he can never do enough. I feel so bad because I know itโs just my OCD getting in the way. But then that thought creeps in saying I canโt trust him because I need to protect myself. Itโs just an ongoing cycle that is so tiring. I donโt even know what I want anymore. We are very opposite when it comes to emotions. I am very in tune and very emotionally intelligent, and he is not. He is the opposite. I do recognize that my anxious attachment style may be hard for him too but I canโt stop thinking about all of his flaws and all of the things he needs to do to make our relationship better. It makes me feel like Iโm the only one putting in effort when in reality that is not true. But my OCD does make me feel like he doesnโt really love me or want to be with me and that he feels forced to be with me or do things for me. It makes me feel like him being with me is like a chore. Can anyone relate? My OCD just makes me feel like I canโt trust anything he says to make our relationship better.
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