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Personally I find the riddle of it all is embracing everything that makes me who I am that is the sum of the good the bad and the indifferent only then can I have peace . Accepting of the whole thing , everything is exactly as it should be for many including the many hardships.

I’ve been through exactly what you’re going through and you’re not alone. I don’t know if you’re looking for advice but something that helps me is to remember that feeling like this is temporary. I know it doesn’t feel that way right now especially when you’re feeling awful all the time but it does get better. Remember that you’re here to get help and you should be proud of yourself for seeking it. Some days are going to be worse than others but the good moments will come, I promise.

I get how you feel this disorder is fucking horrible and it’s extremely hard to cope with, I don’t want to cope with it at all, I’m going through the same thing as you. I wish I could offer advice on how to fix this because I really do get how fucking draining and exhausting this shit show of a disorder is but I don’t know how to help myself either, I just wanna let you know your not alone though and that I’m hoping you can some day overcome yours