Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

Today's thought compulsion

Actually what happens with me daily is I do get unwanted compulsions regarding yesterday at 4:00 p.m. what I was exactly doing or yesterday at what time I took bath so if I start answering that I will get into more of compulsions regarding the scenario which I am thinking and I will get into more trouble so this is what happening every time when I try to solve the compulsion At times I try not to respond to the compulsory and that is ERP but at sometimes I get into an urge to clear the compulsion and get rid of that and I am getting into the loop of compulsion again and again and again

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w

Instead of not responding there is also this other technique called „turning up the volume“, which might work for you. I will give you an example with social anxiety at party: My OCD gives me the intrusive thought that everyone is looking at me and thinking I’m awkward. Turning up the volume would mean in this scenario that I will continue the train of thoughts into the most catastrophic scenario intentionally: they are not only thinking I’m awkward they actually hate me and think I’m unbearable. I will lose all my friends after this party and will never be able to have any friends anymore for the rest of my life. Maybe you find this „turning up the volume“ easier than not having any response whatsoever.

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

Thanks for the reply ... Sorry I couldn't get u

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w

@Ishwarya Can you tell how exactly your thoughts look like when you ruminate about yesterday? Maybe I can give an example for your scenario.

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

Yes sure I will share

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

So what exactly happens is so now I just look at you does then I was throwing a waste into it and suddenly I got a thought just today morning I have throwed used hand kerchief at that time I got a thought like when I throwed the hand key what did exactly happened before and after Before: i came upstairs , and went into my room and throwed the hand key I knew that wat I did after I jus sat on bed was started to work And again I got a thought like ya when I came upstairs my husband was there but exactly I forgot where he was his in room or he was roaming our side the room I couldn't recall perfectly but I can imagine few things but perfectly I can't this gave me severe compulsion I was about to call him regarding this then I said no I shouldn't do this

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w

@Ishwarya Nice I applaud you for not calling your husband for reassurance. So you already have a good understanding of what is a reassurance compulsion. Ok now I give you an example how you can „turn up the volume“ in this example. In essence your OCD wants you to be certain about specific details in the past for instance „where was my husband at this moment“. Now to turn up the volume would mean to think about what else you don‘t know in this moment. Let me give you examples here: What color was your husbands socks? Did they have holes in them? Was he lying or sitting when you started working? Was he moving his toes while you were working? Did he maybe spy on you 🕵️‍♂️ while you were working? How often did he blink while you were working? 137 times? 1229 times? How many breaths? Etc. Basically think about all the possible things you are uncertain about in that moment. This means you are basically doing the same thing as OCD but a lot more exaggerated (even into absurdity), hence „turning up the volume“ of it. My examples might be misplaced because I don’t quite know what kind of details your OCD wants you to be certain about, so I think you can come up with a lot better examples than me because you know your OCD well. If you have any more question, I’m happy to answer.

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

@Anonymous By doing this turning up volume wat exactly happens bro

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w

@Ishwarya Instead of doing your compulsion of trying to get rid of uncertainty of certain details, you open up a lot more uncertainty. It‘s basically doing the opposite of doing a compulsion. You said you have a hard time not responding at all. This way you can respond without doing a compulsion which might be easier for you than not responding at all. There are a lot of techniques out there, doesn’t hurt to try out things if you are stuck 🙂

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

@Anonymous Sure thank u I will try and let u know thank u very much

Ishwarya

Date posted: 48w

And one more example is I was playing with my kid once after my workout and I was saying a story regarding his birth it was so much fun and laugh everything happen before 2 days Today myself my husband and my kid was travelling to get few groceries at the time we were discussing about his birthday plans which is about to happen in 10 days And I got into the thought yeah I was discussing about his birth story to him while I completed the workout just on the floor mat he was playing with me and everything happened but I just want to recall exactly which date before that what I was doing after that what scenario I was doing everything and I start to do think and got into lots of compulsions and got into a trouble

Focd

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 25w

Doing compulsions all day long

No matter what task I’m doing. If I have an intrusive thought I have to redo the task or just just completely move on to something else. I’m Christian and I struggle with scrupulosity. I feel like I have to repeat task to keep everyone safe. I’m tired of this. I know ERP is the key and I have to stand up to the thoughts but they are just so scary. I know God is with me and I’m suppose to have faith but again I’m just so scared. I can’t even fully go into detail about my theme because I don’t want to type it out. I’m in therapy and I’m told to lean into the discomfort but it just seems like an impossible thing for me to do.

Crook

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 24w

OCD in the morning

Each night I go to bed determined to stop compulsions and start beating this disorder. Then I wake up and it smacks me in the face first thing and I’m doing a compulsion before I know it. I told my therapist that I would try to handle it like we do in session, but I’ve already failed. It seems like I can’t bring ERP into my “real” life.

dee012

Date posted: 23w

False memory UGHH!

I hate this! so f-ing annoying! my brain gets over one “what if”, then goes onto the next immediately. It’s like my punishment for feeling and sort of peace or relief. for example, I did a compulsion yesterday trying to see if I did anything bad/inappropriate, I eventually got relief and was like I didn’t do anything bad but then today I did the compulsion one more time just to make sure and then I finally got relief and then my ocd latched onto the compulsion I did today and was like “what if u did something bad/inappropriate but don’t remember” like wtf. this JUST happened. it feels like i forget things immediately!!! Idek if this makes sense im just venting this is so annoying

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