I feel like shit absolute shit for months and idk how to tell anyone because my intrusive thoughts are about stuff like flr example today I was in class and I was like I wish and then my brain said I wish I could rape a dead baby but like obviously I don’t want that and it’s really made me sad cause like what if I’m a rapist
Awww I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling like this! 🫶🏾 Honestly, having OCD is so so hard! I am someone who has suffered with OCD for over 10 years, and I have experienced so many themes! I genuinely have lost count of them! I just want to first start off by saying that I am so glad and proud of you for reaching out for help! It is honestly such a difficult thing to do, I totally get how scary it is to share what you’re going through with OCD! You have done the correct thing 🫶🏾💪 OCD is called the ‘doubt disorder’. It is a bully in your mind, and it targets everything you love and targets everything you fear! Your unwanted intrusive DO NOT mean anything about you! They DO NOT say anything about who you are! They are just words floating around in your mind that form a sentence, that’s all they are! OCD targets your values. Why? Because it knows that if it targets things that are important to you, then it will most likely bother you and get a response out of you. If OCD targeted things that you didn’t care about, then it would be easy to disregard any thoughts that pop up! OCD is described as ego-dystonic, which means that the CONTENT of your unwanted intrusive thoughts is actually the COMPLETE OPPOSITE of your values, intentions, beliefs etc. So, gentle and kind people tend to experience thoughts about harming others. People who are very religious tend to have thoughts about their faith and blasphemous thoughts. You get the idea right? Those of us who suffer with OCD take our thoughts way too seriously! The issue with OCD is NOT the theme or the content that pops up. The problem is how we DEAL with the thoughts! We tend to get so scared and frightened, that we try to push our thoughts away, we argue with them, try and explain ourselves out of them etc etc. All this does is give OCD more power. Compulsions are what those of us with OCD try to do in order to lower our anxiety. Compulsions DO NOT help our anxiety! They actually make things so much worse! All compulsions do is teach our brain that the thought is important, when in reality, the thought is MEANINGLESS! I honestly feel for you, and I know how hard it is when these thoughts are so awful and they feel so scary. But please, remember, there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you! You just have OCD, and that is okay! You are not alone in this! So many people have experienced very similar symptoms to you, and they are living a life free from OCD’s terror! You can too! I would honestly suggest signing up for a free consultation with NOCD! They honestly helped me turn my life around and helped me learn how to manage OCD! You got this! 😎💪
@AaronB1111 THANK YOUU but idk if I have ocd
@bonnieisthebest💗 Honestly, from everything you said in your original post. It very much sounds like OCD. OCD is the doubt disorder. It can make you doubt anything. OCD can make you doubt if you have OCD or not. It honestly is so debilitating and sneaky. You might be thinking “what if this isn’t OCD, and it’s actually who I am?”. This is something that nearly everyone with OCD experiences. It is just another one of OCD’s many tricks to get you stuck in its cycle. In my honest opinion, it sounds like what you are experiencing is definitely OCD. The best thing to do is to book a free consultation with NOCD, you can discuss what you are going through and they will help determine whether you have OCD.
I've had some pretty gruesome thoughts myself. It makes me so depressed. Feeling depressed and anxious today over some stuff. You aren't a rapist... it's trying to convince you of that. I know the thoughts can be excruciating, but they are only thoughts and they aren't real or True
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@memory But idk if I have ocd
Are you under any kind of stress? That can make you have terrible images
@Speckles Yes idk why
@bonnieisthebest💗 I just know that stress can aggravate it. So that's why you could be going thru this
Today has been really hard I feel like I can’t even breathe I feel like a pedo for real :( whenever i think during my alone time i try and coexist with it? but when i decided to think and think i panic and panic more and more i start feel more guilty guys I can’t take this anymore bc when I kinda feel certain it fades aways i think logically i know i probably am ok :( but it’s so scary for me what if i did actually act on the thought and I didn’t realize? And now reflecting it ???
I’ve struggled with necrophilic intrusive thoughts for a while. Every time I hear that someone passed, especially if it’s someone I know, my brain will be like “you want to r*** their dead body”. It’s really disturbing and makes me feel horrible. I feel like I need to tell everyone so they know the “real” me and I fear they wouldn’t like me anymore. A friend of mine, her friend passed away recently and I got the same thought about her. I want to confess to her but I know I can’t. Does anyone relate?
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
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