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This is definitely normal. I’ve been facing this too lately. It’s so scary. I think you may be participating in some compulsions. This article helped me understand what some of my compulsions may be. https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd. With OCD, I’ve found completely ignoring the thought has helped. Literally no reaction at all. I haven’t done ERP, but I think that could be the idea with it. I’m so sorry, I know how awful this.

Hey goin through this still too. Just started anafranil last week and it's helped my anxiety but thoughts are still there. Says it'll take 6 weeks to kick in. Ate yoy on any meds? Yes I have the exact same thoughts and urges and I've been scared and crying everyday for the last month so your not alone well get through this

Yes I exactly relate to you, especially on the impulsive part, my thoughts feel like impulses sometimes, unfortunately I have been dealing with these thoughts for about 7 months now. I have unfortunately not sought out professional help, instead I also would post a lot online during the summer constantly seeking reassurance. But I do want to tell you that it is indeed ocd, you arguing with your thoughts is a “pure O” compulsion, meaning you have more mental compulsions and not really physical ones. I would suggest seeking out help from a professional because in my case I have unfortunately become very numb in terms of empathy and guilt and anxiety I hope one day those senses will come back. College, Gym, and work got me feeling better then I did during the summer as it keeps me occupied. Again this is just a case of OCD especially if you’re doubting wether you have it or not, Again I would recommend talking to a professional as they can get you your life back from OCD best of luck stranger!

Going through this exact same thing:( just know you’re not alone. I just got out of a BADDDD episode that felt like urges and I had to be calmed down by my mom and anxiety meds. I was feeling so much better yesterday, I thought I was genuinely better and then this happened :(