- Date posted
- 46w
Intrusive thoughts
I’ll give you an example of what I experience on a daily basis, so there was this one time I was on a date with my gf at the time and I was so caught up in the moment then all of a sudden a thought pops up into my mind. In the exact moment of having fun with her, the thought was “she doesn’t love you, she’s only here for the ride, she only “loves” you because you make her feel good not because she loves you as a person” in a split second it hits me. It changed my whole demeanor, it ruined the mood for me, and I couldn’t tell her about because I grew up keeping my thoughts to myself or expressing my feelings as a weakness. So after that initial thought, I became so agitated to the point where I’d go quiet, and when she would continue to be herself I would get annoyed by her continuing to do whatever it was she was doing. I’ve continued this behavior up until she left me because I exploded this one time. Messy breakup, but i genuinely didn’t know what was wrong with me until I started reflecting. Now that I’ve fully acknowledged it, im trying my best to avoid it, but I still find myself struggling with it severely. I lost many friendships over this. What’s your advice ? Is this considered ocd ? One initial thought that lingers for hours or even days at a time for me. I’ve recently started taking Wellbutrin and im able to move on from the thoughts within mins but the feeling still lingers on. But whenever I’m not doing anything, the thought comes back. Before Wellbutrin, the thought would linger as I’d be doing daily tasks like cleaning, cooking, walking, conversing, and working. Am I screwed ? I feel extremely lonely.