Miguelh1086
- Date posted
- 25w ago
is getting on nocd a compulsion?
i feel like getting on this app is a compulsion, but it brings me so much comfort knowing there’s people out there like me. and knowing i’m not alone
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 25w ago
It's tough because anything can be a compulsion. The way I understand it is that it's the way that you do something. Like if you feel as though you are compelled to do something then it might be a compulsion. Sometimes when I journal it's a way of getting thoughts off my chest, but other times when I journal it's compulsive and I feel as though I have to journal or something scary will happen if I don't work out my thoughts in that exact moment.
lexiiiiiiiilexiiiiiiii
- Date posted
- 25w ago
Sammmmmme I go on here anytime I’m thinking I don’t have ocd so I can prove to myself that I do have it(which I do bc I’ve been diagnosed)
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
- Date posted
- 25w ago
oh 100%. There are a few people I have had to almost aggressively say they needed to delete the app. the hack to identify a compulsion is- is it something you are doing that has the end goal if getting rid of anxiety and discomfort AND is it something you are doing for extended periods of time. For me, google was a BAD compulsion and Reddit. I would sit at my desk at work and have 10 tabs open ( because I couldn't lose the last tab that had that ALMOST PERFECT answer I had found) but I needed more and I would get on reddit and read post after post looking for someone who experienced EXACTLY what I was going through so I could know I wasn't alone, I was not crazy, and I would spend 8 hours a day doing this if not more. And I really couldn't control it. My work suffered ALOT. When I got with an NOCD therapist she said I had to get off the web. took a week of feeling like I was detoxing from some drug but finally I broke the grip and I actually felt SO MUCH better. OCD is stupid because doing the things that give you INSTANT relief and the WORST things you can do for treatment, but doing the things that cause you distress are the things that will eventually turn your OCD upside down and empty it of its power. Short term pain-Long term gain is what I have been told and its reversible, short-term gain-long term pain.
virtual diaryvirtual diary
- Date posted
- 25w ago
I think this is me aswell (right now actually), somedays I go extended amounts without researching but whenever I feel triggered I go right back to it. I always think, okay once I feel a little better then I will be able to stop. Or I'll fear that If I don't make myself feel better I wont be able to function at work!
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
- Date posted
- 25w ago
@virtual diary - that was me 100% i would say " ill just do 30 minuets to give me enough to chill me out so I can get some work done" and 30 minuets turned into 5 hours and no work got done.
virtual diaryvirtual diary
- Date posted
- 25w ago
@TexasOCD41 - And you quit cold turkey? I really struggle with rumination aswell.
TexasOCD41TexasOCD41
- Date posted
- 25w ago
@virtual diary - I did, i made MINOR slips, ( 5 minuets before i would catch myself and force myself to stop) it really did help. I wont claim its easy. Rumination is difficult too because its so sneaky but I would just remind myself its OCD, I have better uses of my time and energy and keep redirecting until eventually the rumination stopped.
sts7sts7
- Date posted
- 25w ago
I definitely feel this sometimes, but on the other hand I do it because I enjoy listening to others and hearing what they have to say
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Lilly5679
- Date posted
- 22w ago
Is it in my head
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jjtornado
- Date posted
- 14w ago
My head is so loud.
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Dennasw
- Date posted
- 11w ago
My first day
Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
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