- Date posted
- 45w
rocd
I feel like my rocd is flaring back up. Me and my boyfriend are in college and we’ve been saying for over 5 years now. We started dating in the beginning of high school and now sophomores in college. we’re 5 hrs apart and we don’t have much to talk about we know each others schedules and it’s pretty much the same. I get really anxious when i don’t have this immense feeling of love for him at the moment when i think or talk to him. i do love him so much but I feel like the distance makes us dry and i begin to feel distant cause we both have our own lives but i am anxious that i will fall out of love or if im in the process of it and im lying to myself. my friend was like oh do you see yourself marrying him and im like im only 19! and then i was like do i not want to?! the absolute spiral my brain goes through… does anyone know how i can cope so that thoughts stop. i just wanna be present for my boyfriend and only think of the positives.