im Catholic and ever since starting highschool and started being scared of what people are thinking. I’m scared that I’m evil and that I praise evil because my ocd is a fear of talking to it so my compulsion is to focuse on talking to something or someone else. But, I keep imagining evil like under the ground and now it feels like I know its personality. And I can’t imagine it as truly evil and I can’t even imagine God anymore. Please help
People with ocd are not evil , they have a intense, irrational, fear disorder. Real evil people enjoy doing terrible actions. There is a huge difference ocd , it not the same as a psychopath disorder. People with OCD do not hurt people , they are just afraid they will. God will always love you, god knows you have ocd and he does not resent you for it.
I also have scrupulosity. I know what you’re going through. The truth of it is you’re not praising evil, it’s OCD praising itself. The thoughts come in involuntarily and they are not yours. Best to ride out the wave and acknowledge that the thought has come, but it’s not yours, and take comfort in whatever emotional reaction you have that it has no true bearing, no legitimacy, despite how you may feel. Remember, God judges the heart. He knows you, and he knows what’s not you. He knows your pain and sees what you go through, and your faith is not contingent on how you feel, no matter how strong those emotions are. He’s got you, He’s aware of all of it, and his grace is sufficient. The hardest thing with scrupe is learning to trust God knows and loves you, even when it’s hard to love yourself.
@Kag911 Yes. This is very well put, thankyou for this message.
Has anyone ever had ocd focus on the devil? Whenever I watch a show where they portray him as wounded or the good guy I start to believe it myself, like start questioning if Satan was bad or if God was unfair about punishing him. It's driving me insane because I keep obsessing over how I'll get possessed or turn into a horrible person because of these thoughts. But I don't know how to get rid of them or how to do any exposure in this situation cause even though I'm not a believer in God, I fear evil, and I can't touch it even if it helps. All I do is compulsively pray and beg God for forgiveness and I hate the cycle but don't know how to break it.
I keep randomly getting scary evil/ demonic images or thoughts in my head. I can’t specifically describe how or what they are but I just feel scared & unsettled I feel like I’m possessed or that a devil is controlling my mind or something! I’m catholic I haven’t really been that religious but I’ve been so scared that I started praying to feel better and I feel like I need to pray to make whatever this is go away. I never believed in possession I’m more of a scientific based person however I’ve reached the point where my beliefs aren’t firm anymore I feel scared I don’t know what to believe it’s like I’m slowly believing my mind is being controlled I’m scared :( is something severely wrong with me? Is possession / devils real? Do I have a severe mental illness am I going crazy / developing psychosis or becoming delusional?? :(
My OCD has expanded to my Roman Catholic beliefs by a voice in my head saying blasphemous things about God and his son Jesus when I’m learning from Catholic teachings, the Holy Spirit rosary prayer, and the Bible. I don’t know how to stop this monster that’s inside of my mind!🥺
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