Oh god. My boyfriend just sent me a article he's reading for college about lgbt Jews. I'm ethnically Jewish. I don't know why this is triggering me so badly, but it is.

I honestly don't know either ? I'd like to say I'm straight but these thoughts are screwing me over so I'm just unknown right now. The more I think about labels, the more anxious I am and the more I need to find certainty

I said it because of my OCD. I wasn't really attracted to girls but I couldn't understand why I was having the thoughts I was having. Now my OCD is at a point where it's really really out of hand and it feels like I am attracted to girls. I don't know anymore. Honestly I don't know what I am.

Yeah when I identified as bi, I started comparing which sex I'm more 'attracted' too. And it doesn't help that there's so many ugly ass dudes in my city ? so obv the pretty girls outweigh the ugly dudes. So I just trashed the concept of being a bisexual because it made me worse. So as I'm going to therapy right now, I'm not going to think about the labels at all because it's a dangerous slope to go down??

@NocturnalGyal Just know you're not alone and with the right therapy, you'll be back to your normal self :) I really wanna do ERP but I don't want to do it by myself ? I'm waiting for my therapist to get it over with

He doesn't. I'm afraid to tell him because I don't think he'll believe me. In the past I came out as bisexual to my friends because I was trying to rationalize my ocd (I didn't know it was hocd yet). My friends, my boyfriend and I were hanging out and my friend told my boyfriend (who I had only been dating for a few months at that point) that I was bisexual without first asking my permission. It wasn't something I was trying to keep from him, it just hadn't come up, because the theme was kind of on the back burner. He asked me if it was true and I said eh, I don't know. I didn't want him to think that I was trying to get attention by saying I was bisexual, so I ended up telling him that it was true. I also was scared that it might come true, so I thought I better tell him now just in case. It's been a long ass time since then, and I haven't spoken to him about it since. He still thinks I'm bi. I don't know what to do. I really dug myself deep with this one. He'll probably just think I'm actually a lesbian if I tell him, and what if I am? I don't know anymore. I don't want be, but I'm terrified that it's true.

@hateocd123 I think it would be good to talk to him about this but first tell him what OCD is and then ease into your theme of it