Does anyone else have this

I have to pray for ocd and because I’m religious anyway but it takes like 10-20 minutes every night and is obviously the same thing every night but it didn’t bother me as much before and I just delt with it when I was doing it but because I’ve now being doing this part of the compulsions for I think half a year I know think if it and dread it all day and want to go upstairs at like 7 ti do this and all other things so I can get to sleep at a reasonable time but it’s so annoying, anyway I just think about it constantly and basically recite what I say in the day for no reason, is this an overreaction or is it normal thanks also me feeling like this I feel like God hates me for this but I want to pray and enjoy it but ocd just took over which is really irritating anyway thanks

jmiracler

Date posted: 45w

First and foremost, God could never hate you. His word says there is absolutely nothing that can separate his love for you. Secondly, this is part of the OCD and is not something God requires of us. Those are OCD religious rituals and God is concerned with a relationship not religion. Please know that though we feel scared and overwhelmed and guilty for our intrusive thought, God sees past them. He knows they are not ours and he sees our beautiful souls even though we feel they’re ugly or monstrous. God obviously loves when we pray to him and he isn’t mad at us for repetitive prayers. Again, he knows it’s our disorder that causes us to do this, and he stays with us through it all. Praying for you sweet friend! You’ve got this

amayal

Date posted: 45w

@jmiracler Thank you so much that’s helped, but I can’t help but think what if it’s just us making up that he still likes us after this and that his love is unconditional but I’m sure it can be but I’m worried it’s just humans making that up or am I overthinking, sorry thank you so much hope everything goes well

jmiracler

Date posted: 45w

@amayal There’s no way it’s us making it up. It is literally a misfire or something in the brain making us think these thoughts. So your first step in treating OCD is that you got to know intrusive thoughts are not your own. I attempted suicide in 2013 because the intrusive thoughts convinced me God washed his hands of me. I was so devastated by the thought that God washed his hands of me that I was willing to take my own life. Those thoughts obviously were not my own. Something triggered that fear in me. So my brain got crosswired somehow in an attempt to save itself. I don’t understand it all but I do know the thoughts are not mine. I don’t know if it’s Satan who puts them there or not, but they’re not mine. Do you have children by chance or nieces and nephews you absolutely love? Think about this. If they said something really mean to you, you wouldn’t understand why and it would hurt you deeply but you wouldn’t stop loving them. God is greater and all knowing. If us mere humans wouldn’t stop loving us, then a loving Heavenly Father would not stop loving us. Our problem is we hold God to a humanly standard and think he’s gonna react like humans do but he is God. He is perfect and he is Love. We’ve gotta stop thinking he reacts as humans act

Jesuslovesme777

Date posted: 45w

@jmiracler Well said! ✝️🙏🏻

amayal

Date posted: 45w

@jmiracler Thank you that makes a lot of sense and I’ll definitely keep that in mind, I hope you’re ok

jmiracler

Date posted: 45w

@amayal @amayal Yes. I am okay. I’ve been on a combination of drugs that take away the suicidal thoughts. I had a relapse/trigger a week ago that last 4 days. It was horrid, but I seem to be on the mends. Honestly getting on here and talking to people like you guys help me immensely

amayal

Date posted: 45w

@jmiracler I’m so glad everything is going well, hope a quick recovery

jmiracler

Date posted: 45w

@amayal Thank you Love! ❤️

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: 18w

Can anyone relate: OCD prayers

TW religious ocd OCD is turning innapropriate desires into prayers. Essentially the best way I can describe it is everyone has innapropriate desires sometimes. One example is if I’m suicidal, I wouldn’t mind if a meteor hit while I was asleep. Obviously that affects other people too, but if it’s not my fault, selfishly I want it. Well, it essentially turns that “I want this” thought into me thinking towards god “this would be nice if it happens.” Especially if it wasn’t my fault at all, I wouldn’t mind. My brain can VERY easily turn that into a prayer. All I have to do is direct it for a second towards god, and boom, technically it’s a prayer. Has anyone else had this? It really seems like ocd, even if it is VERY technically a prayer. It doesn’t seem like a normal, thought out prayer

Anonymous

Date posted: 10w

I need an opinion

So I am a practicing Catholic, and I've gotten into reading the Bible this year, praying the Rosary, things like that, and while I love to do that, my OCD has been seeming to take over, in ways such as like I have to read the Bible for a certain amount of time before I'm satisfied with the time read, or something along those lines, and it's starting to make the thought of praying and reading the Bible unenjoyable, which is really hurting me inside, because I used to and want to enjoy it so bad, but now this is making it really hard to, because it feels like I don't have control over my own thoughts, and little things trigger the thoughts, it's just so annoying. If there's anything anyone thinks I can do to combat this please let me know.

Aly2010

Date posted: 9w

Religious OCD

Hi! I have been struggling with ocd for many years of my life, however, I have recently been struggling with religious ocd. Currently my ocd has been putting thought into my mind like, “you shouldn’t go to that party, because “God” doesn’t what you to” or “don’t do this or else it’s going to make “God” mad.” These thoughts have been overall causing me so much anxiety, and truly I don’t know what to do. I’ve been struggling to identify it’s actually Gods voice or not. Also, my ocd has been also making my prayer a very stressful part of my day, which is not how it should feel at all. Now finding peace in prayer feels more like a chore, than a conversation. Does anybody else have ocd like this? If so, any tips?

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