The phrase I’m gay just keeps popping up

Anyone else will just be doing anything normal and I’m gay comes in? It’s so distressing and I try and say ok sure ocd but the anxiety over takes me and my mind won’t let me believe I’m straight when I am. I love men I’m Not attracted to women but when I ask myself the doubt is for sure there which sounds like Casebook ocd. I’m just sick of this I don’t want to have to laugh at things in my head that don’t make any sense it’s so hard and unfair

Username: Anon849Anon849

Date posted: 7w ago

i experienced this too, it's actually what triggered me into this sexual orientation obsession because the thought literally wouldn't go away and i didn't know what hocd was until four months of spiraling and i started trying to believe it to get rid of the anxiety and negative emotions. i still get thoughts like when my boyfriend gets jealous of another man, my thought would say "but i'm gay you should worry about women"

Username: flippy15flippy15

Date posted: 7w ago

@Anon849 So wtf!! I just want to know that real People Who are gay don’t hear those thoughts- I’m thinking no. And if I’m so sure I’m straight and have no interest in a woman why can’t my mind settle? My brain doesn’t doubt me when I say I for sure am not attracted to women but then when I say I’m straight it sounds like I’m lying. I try and tell myself maybe just that word sounds weird. I’ve never had to call myself something but when I say the word I’m heterosexual that sounds right. But then ocd makes me check it again and again and ask myself again And again

Username: Anon849Anon849

Date posted: 7w ago

@flippy15 it doesn't matter if some of them do have thoughts like these. your mind having the thought isn't the problem. it's your reaction to the thought that is bringing you distress. Like I can have these thought now and I won't question them and i just go on with my day and it doesn't bother me 🤷🏻‍♀️ am i in denial? Maybe idk, but for now I'm going to keep dating my boyfriend.

Username: flippy15flippy15

Date posted: 7w ago

@Anon849 How can it not bother you? I wish it didn’t . I’m just very black and white. Why would my mind even say that out of nowhere no sexual context or anything and that’s what ocd is. Why does mean maybe I’m in denial? With all the other themes it’s automatically false nonsense

Username: Anon849Anon849

Date posted: 7w ago

@flippy15 It doesn't bother me because I've been going to therapy and medicating for the past 13 months, but the thing that has helped me the most is starting ERP in July. I was very black and white before too. I even broke up with my boyfriend and came out to him and my family last year to see if it would make the anxiety and distress go away. I ended up calling my bf's gay uncle a few days after to tell him what i was experiencing and he was actually the one that said it sounds very much like HOCD than someone that is discovering they're gay. I ended up putting myself on a 48 hr psych hold a few weeks later hold because the SOOCD spiraled so hard I went into psychosis. Other subtypes of OCD don't bother you because it doesn't attack your values. Someone with pedophilia OCD could say the same thing about SOOCD. Someone who struggles with not checking their stove three times before leaving because OCD tells that that their family is going to die truly feels that their family will die if they don't do this. It doesn't feel like false nonsense to them.

Username: SomaticSun🌤️SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 7w ago

I can never laugh at my OCD thought, images, clips, etc either. They can be too threatening. And not funny. Very hard to laugh at something that frightens you to your core. It’s also a forced, false reaction that has been taught to you. It doesn’t work. You can only live with the nastiness of it, don’t try to laugh it off, that’s fake. Look up Carnivore diet on YouTube and study and I MEAN STUDY the videos. You don’t have to turn full-blown carnivore, but it sure will change your outlook, on all of this. You are not trapped like you think you are. And ERP is not the only way out of this. It never did anything for me, only gave the games more power. The more I faced them head on, the more they fought back. And I got worse. It’s more about acceptance, and trying different methods. Start with the diet. Trust me on this. Seed oils, preservatives, too much sugar, etc. destroying our minds.

Username: NicaNica

Date posted: 7w ago

Laughing at your OCD and trolling it is a very advanced self ERP that honestly, most people on here shouldn’t be doing. You need to first learn to accept the thoughts merely existing in your brain and not fight or judge it.

Username: NicaNica

Date posted: 7w ago

@Nica Shouldn’t be doing off the bat* my phone really messed that up lol

Username: AFord15

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m tired of my “HOCD”. I don’t even know if it’s OCD. I’ve never thought I was gay before in my life and now it’s convinced me that deep down I want to be with a man. I can barely talk to my girlfriend without having intrusive thoughts. I can’t even tell an intrusive thought from a feee flowing thought anymore. I try to make myself think about women and it keeps happening. Even when I look forward to something in the future I’ll get a thought “but you’re gay”. I’m tired. I’ve talked to some of my friends and family and it’s a weird issue. No one else is going through this that I know of. If all I think about all day is being gay then I must be gay. Even if I find reassurance it’s not enough I don’t even accept it. Maybe this all happened for a reason. I’m never going to wake up and these thoughts won’t be there. I don’t even care anymore, I’ll just be alone or be gay.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Going to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

SOOCD

Not officially diagnosed with OCD, but will I ever get over this or is it just a part of my life now. Have been constantly having thoughts every single day for almost a year it feels like. There has barely been times where I’m not thinking “I’m gay” or having it in the back of my mind. This just brings extreme guilt as I’m in a relationship. Not sure what to do. Everything from my past is proof. This morning I was just bombarded with “ I’m gay” “im gay”

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Youarenotyou...

Date posted: 27w ago

Thinking I’m gay cuz of what others said

Does anyone else struggle with sexual orientation OCD? I am a male who identifies as straight but for awhile Thought that I was bi sexual cuz I thought I was experiencing same sex attraction, but now that I’ve become aware that sexual orientation OCD is a thing and has a name, I can see that that is what I was struggling with. Yet, I’ve still had people say to me that I am gay and this n that, and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s cuz I am not as masculine as other men? Maybe cuz I have a higher voice? Maybe cuz i don’t have that strong alpha male posture? I overthink this. Just cuz someone told me that they think i am gay, doesn’t mean I am. This is where my Sexual orientation OCD kicks in, & I start thinking oh my gosh well if this person n that person n that person thinks im gay, then maybe i am! But the thing is is IM NOT! I am attracted to women and I wanna be married and have kids, & I can see how I have been obsessing about my orientation because of what others have said about me. Anyone else dealt with this?

Sexual Orientation OCD

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