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- 1y
False memory OCD
Does anyone go over their false memory and decide yes it didn’t happen and then two seconds later think oh but what if it is real and then mime their false memory again?
Does anyone go over their false memory and decide yes it didn’t happen and then two seconds later think oh but what if it is real and then mime their false memory again?
Yes, this is very common with OCD, especially when dealing with false memories. OCD has a way of creating doubt even after you’ve convinced yourself that the memory is false. It’s like you go over it, feel certain for a moment, and then that "what if" creeps back in, making you question everything again. This back-and-forth cycle is a classic OCD trap, where the need for certainty fuels the anxiety and keeps you stuck in a loop of doubt and re-analysis. The more you try to "solve" the memory or be 100% sure it didn’t happen, the more power the OCD gains. It’s the nature of OCD to feed on uncertainty, and the more you give in to the compulsion of replaying the memory, the worse it can get. One way to approach this is to recognize that you don’t need to be certain. It’s okay to live with some doubt, even if it feels uncomfortable at first. Practicing sitting with the uncertainty and resisting the urge to "solve" the false memory is a key part of breaking that cycle.
@Justin Trout What if I went over the events and I was sure nothing happened and then after that the thoughts kind of stopped? What does that mean? Like not only for a minute or two but forever? Because like once a few months ago I went over events step by step and I proved that they didn’t happen and after that the thoughts stopped. Does that mean I don’t have ocd or I acted on the thoughts or something?
Yes it's a compulsion. You feel like you got your answer and then the doubt comes back. Do your best to leave it alone. Once you stop compulsions, your certainty will increase on its own over time.
Yes. I try to create systems for myself to prevent relying on my memory only. For example I have a security camera at my door and I take notes of important times on my phone, etc.
Has false memory OCD affected you so badly that you feel that a lot of your memories period are unclear, vague, fuzzy and can’t recall correctly?
can a false memory feel very very very real? because i literally don’t know if something happened or not. absolutely no clue but it feels so real
I basically can’t stop thinking about the false memories and I’ve been thinking about them non-stop since I’ve woken up today. I keep picturing the images / the false memory and I focus and fixate on the images and they feel so so real and realistic and when I think of them I get a feeling of “clarity” and a genuine sense of knowing and belief that deep down I know these memories are true and have happened and that I’m just in denial and lying to myself and you by saying that they’re false memories when in actuality I know they’re real which is also really frustrating and makes me feel uncomfortable. On top of that as I’m writing this message my stomach won’t stop turning and it really hurts and I just want to cry and my brain says that I’m experiencing these physical feelings because I know I am lying and just in denial and that these physical symptoms are proof that I am lying and just in denial and I just don’t know what to do or how to calm down. I really don’t want these memories to be true and I want them to be false more than anything in the world and I am not lying when I say I don’t know whether or not they’re real and I’m not lying or pretending they’re false memories but the more I say that to myself the more it feels like a lie and I’m just terrified at the thought and idea of them being even 1% true because why wouldn’t they be? Is it really possible to fabricate entire memories or doing sexual things to and with another person that are that detailed and realistic :/ My brain says things will only get better once I admit to the false memories and stop lying to myself and stop being in denial and stop using false memory ocd as an excuse and just admit to them because I know deep down I have done them and that they’re true which is why I feel a deep sense of clarity about them and that I am just continuing to lie to myself, to my girlfriend, to my therapist and to my family when I say I don’t know whether I have done anything sexual to or with this person because deep down I know I have I just don’t want to admit it so I’m continuing to be in this heavy state and cycle of denial because I don’t want to accept what I have done. I just want this to end. I just want confirmation that I have never done anything sexual to or with this person and that these memories are entirely fabricated by my ocd and have no basis in reality but I don’t even think that’s possible. I’m so done.
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