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Stop scrolling and go outside. Honest advice. I've scrolled out of OCD got to find it anxiety, don't do it. Also, a trick I used in OCD recovery and still use, is I tell myself that if xy or z still bothers me in two hours I'll consider doing the compulsion to fix it. When the two hours rolls around, I'd either forget why I was anxious, or it wouldn't seem important anymore, or it would still bother me. If it still bothered me, I'd push it off another two hours. This gently trained my brain that not everything is an emergency.

What you're describing is very typical for someone with OCD. It's not uncommon for OCD to latch onto things that are important or meaningful to you, like the job you're excited about, and then link them to intrusive thoughts. Your mind is creating a false connection between the thought and the job, making you feel like you need to "fix" it in order to feel safe or to prevent something bad from happening. This is part of the compulsive cycle of OCD. The intrusive thought came up, and now your brain is telling you that you need to find that specific live stream to neutralize or correct the thought. But the more you engage in that compulsion (in this case, scrolling to find the live stream), the stronger the anxiety and the false connection between the thought and the job will become. The reality is that the thought has no power over your future or your job—it's just an uncomfortable, unwanted thought that doesn’t reflect reality. The goal with OCD treatment, especially through Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), is to learn how to sit with these intrusive thoughts without acting on the compulsions to fix or neutralize them. In this case, resisting the urge to continue searching for that live stream, and accepting that the thought is just a thought, will help break the cycle.