i need hope.

thats exactly what is scaring me man, how am i gonna hang in there for another 5 weeks.. like my ocd makes me so hopeless for life and the added anxiety is just making me become suicidal.. i feel like no one can help me.

@icloudyl Hey, something that helps me is remembering that the uncomfortable feeling will go away. It always does. I’ve had times where I dealt with depersonalization/derealization for weeks/months due to high anxiety when I was a teen and then a few years ago. Dealing with it now too after a big life change and starting antidepressants but it does get better. It happens as a defense mechanism that your brain does because it’s trying to protect you, but it won’t stay like that, trust me. You kind of just have to ignore and continue doing things to train your brain that it’s okay. I had just spent the past few months not doing anything because I was scared of it but I’m getting better now that I’m actually doing things again. Don’t let it control your life. Your time is precious and you’re alive and you’re gonna get through this. Just think how much stronger you’ll be. You’ve got this. You’re not alone and you’re gonna get through this. You’re going to get better.

@jpatty - part of me believes that everything gets better, it got better 460 days ago. it will get better again but there is also a ocd part of me telling me that im not getting better and im forever gonna lose hope in life and im gonna be a vessel and die and be forgotten in 100 years part of me wants to believe in religion part of me doesnt want it cause its reassurance and its not a certainty. im just lost man, i feel like im being torn apart

@icloudyl Stay another day friend. This too shall pass, this too shall pass. Fuck OCD you got this!

@Stein - one of my friend just passed away, i dont have this. thank you all

@icloudyl I’m so sorry for your loss. If you feel suicidal please please talk to a mental health professional or a trusted friend.

@Stein - i did but i dont think its gonna work. i really dont think its gonna get better im scared of suicide but man this is fucking rough, this is absolutely fucking rough

@icloudyl I promise you it will get better. It has to. You have to believe it. It probably is getting better already but the OCD wants you to stay stuck in it. Just tell your brain that it doesn’t have to protect you right now. That’s what I have to remind myself. I have been having OCD thoughts and ruminating on the fact that I’ll pass away and lose loved ones and get caught up in imagined scenarios but then I have to remind myself of the present. Remind my brain that it doesn’t have to protect me and it’s okay to not have control over those things. It would be exhausting if you did. We have interesting brains, but they’re also beautiful and it’s a gift that we think deeply. Think about how you’d like to live your life and be able to look back decades from now and be proud of it and love all of the memories you made. You’re here for a reason, I promise. I am Christian so I believe in the power of prayer and God’s peace. I pray you receive that. His peace is truly the most comforting thing. You do have a purpose here, I promise. I’ve had doubts before and still wrestle with them but then I ask, “Lord I believe, but help me with my unbelief.” The amounts of signs He’s given me the past month while struggling with this is amazing. He really is in this with us too.