“I felt like the worst person alive”: A battle with OCD's darkest thoughts

@sm1ng I feel this. I’m 52, had ocd since around age 7, didn’t find out until I was 50. Trying to unravel my past experiences with ocd is really difficult

@Mowgli - Wow. Like wow in a "I'm really sorry man" way :/ I didn't discover I had it for about 15 years, which I feel great pain at and feel that should someone have spotted it, I would be in a much better place now. And I'm talking like 5 therapists, and I was as blatant an OCD sufferer as you'll ever see! Presumably you feel something similar? If so it Must be horrendous -_-

@sm1ng Yup, I’ve had numerous therapists, and like you, it’s so obvious that I’ve got OCD, my life is like a hellish scobby doo episode, I look back on my life like “it was the janitor!!! (OCD)”

@Mowgli - Hey @mowgli, I’m new to this site and it seems like I cannot DM anyone, like you for example - is that the case? If so, why? thanks man.

@Mowgli The fact that you’ve dealt with the disorder for literal decades and you’re willing and able to face those fears is incredible. I’ve suffered since I was kid, experiencing some awful complex childhood trauma that may have triggered it all and after finally receiving my diagnosis- about 15 years after- and working to face it and walk through it

@sm1ng Hey man, no you can’t directly message people on here unfortunately

@KelSul73 Thank you. I also had heavy trauma happen to me as a child, often I think ocd was a response to that, it started showing up at the same time. I’m currently doing a lot of yin yoga, which seems to address both problems really well

I hear you! I can't believe I'm still alive some days. It's taking a toll

@Mowgli - That's... unusual? Are they adding this feature soon or something do you know?

@sm1ng I have no idea man. I’m thinking that maybe cos it’s a therapy type thing and not a forum that is why they don’t have msg feature