Feeling low

Hey today I’m feeling very tired because of my OCD I’m just so tired of it. I feel I’m doing everything to get better. I disregard the thoughts, I’m trying to do things like I don’t have ocd but it doesn’t want to go away. I was doing fine for a long period of time and now I feel like I’m back a square one. It’s been almost 2 months now I’m battling with OCD and I’m just tired. Sure I have moments where it’s better than others, I also have days where I barely have OCD but I also have really bad days like today where I just don’t want to get out of bed. Last time I had a relapse it took my 4 weeks to get out of it I don’t understand why this time it takes me more. I’m starting believing that I will never feel better again. Anyway I’m gonna try to find the strength to get out of bed and to start my day. But I just wanted to share. It’s such a horrible illness.

Username: Doc39*mgDoc39*mg

Date posted: 10w ago

I'm scared and tired most of the time.

Username: onedaythiswillpassonedaythiswi...

Date posted: 10w ago

i’m so sorry to hear this, and i can relate so much. I just wanted to say progress isn’t always linear and it’s easy to feel disheartened when you go back a few steps and i hear you and feel you. I always like to hold on to the good times i did have when i felt a little better, and notice hey maybe I feel like I’m back at square one right now, but I got out of bed yesterday, I laughed and did normal things and I felt in the moment, as opposed to in my head, and I lived, even if it was for a day, an afternoon or an hour. Those memories are the only thing that gives me hope. I promise you there is a time after this, when you will go weeks and months without feeling awful and you will look back at the bad times and wished you could reach out to you then and tell yourself that. There was a time before this and there will be a time after, you got this, even when you feel your weakest I promise you, you are your strongest.

Username: melissaaamelissaaa

Date posted: 10w ago

@onedaythiswillpass Thank you so much for your kind words ❤️ I’m actually feeling a little bit better than this morning !

Username: Lily Sh. Lily Sh.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 10w ago

I am also going through a relapse and it has been over 2 months. It is reducing every day with erp and meds but I don't know when or if it will end. For me it becomes compulsive to try to "get rid of it" and that fuels the obsession and compulsion. Give yourself grace because this episode will indeed come to an end but we can't force it. Do your best with erp and take one day at a time. We got this ♥️

Username: melissaaamelissaaa

Date posted: 10w ago

@Lily Sh. hey I’m glad im not the only one who’s going through it. I’m doing ERP everytime a thought pops up but because I don’t see a lot of improvement ( there’s some improvement but not enough for me I guess ) my ocd laches on what if I never recover ? What if this is the way my brain is wired forever…? Because I’m doing ERP but I still have the symptoms of ocd. Surely I have days better than others but overall I still have OCD and it’s so annoying and some days are just so hard to get through. I’m going to try and take it one day at the time yes and we’ll see I know it will come to an end but I just it will end soon. Anyway if you’re looking for support don’t hesitate !

Username: melissaaamelissaaa

Date posted: 10w ago

@melissaaa Hope*

Username: Lily Sh. Lily Sh.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 10w ago

@melissaaa I feel the same way and sometimes it feels like this is forever. I have found that meds are helping me take the edge off and relieve some of the depression related to living with ocd and I also started attending support groups here at NOCD. As far as seeing improvement, it takes a while for the brain to rewire. Hang in there.

Username: melissaaamelissaaa

Date posted: 10w ago

@Lily Sh. Hey ! Yes sometimes it does feel like it’s like this forever. I know it takes time for the brain to rewire but since it’s not my first ocd episode I thought somehow it was going to take less time to get out of it. Guess I was wrong and that’s ok! Meds are helping it’s true and what kind of support groups are you attending ? Hope we will be better soon 🙃

Username: Lily Sh. Lily Sh.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 10w ago

@melissaaa The NOCD app has free support groups led by therapists. I went to one for people with harm obsessions (my main theme throughout the years) and it was great. They have many to choose from.

Username: Lavander

Date posted: 5y ago

In the last two days, I was deeply sad and unmotivated (If you read my posts, I think you noticed it). So, today, I woke up "better". It's just like I'm in a tiny moment of clarity. I'm so sick of this. It isn't true, but it won't leave me alone. I just feel mentally and emotionally exhausted. And when it comes back, it just feels so real. OCD screams that I'm just in denial, and it takes all my will to live, like it's taking my identity and ripping it to shreds. "What ifs" flood my mind. It puts a weight on my heart. It makes me believe I need to "come out". It takes my attention from other areas of my life. I am always in a bad mood. I mistreat my parents. I'm cold towards my colleagues. This lie is destroying my life, treatment is expensive, and I have no one to talk about this who would really understand. If it wasn't for this app, I'd be completely alone in this dreadful illness.

Username: berryblood

Date posted: 47w ago

rough ocd day

lately i’ve been having pretty bad ocd days but today was definitely one of my worst days. i just feel like such an awful person and the ocd is really eating at me. i try really hard, or i feel like i do sometimes. i try to talk to my mom and she says she understands but she doesn’t- and i hate it. i can’t even get dressed in certain clothing or watch a show i like anymore without ocd interfering. my mind is all over the place and i feel so helpless. i just wish it’d stop.

Username: Mitch4

Date posted: 42w ago

OCD Setbacks

I felt like I was doing ok (not great) in my OCD recovery, putting in the work and noticing some progress. But after this most recent set back I just feel so beat down and honestly feels so hard to keep doing recovery work. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I hate this, I hate mental health, I just want to be and feel normal. This past year that should be the best times of my life has been literally the absolute worst with no end in sight. I don’t understand how OCD has taken over my brain, not only in thoughts but heavy on the emotions/feelings side which is the worst.

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