Struggling with OCD relapse and feeling exhausted from the battle.

lately i’ve been having pretty bad ocd days but today was definitely one of my worst days. i just feel like such an awful person and the ocd is really eating at me. i try really hard, or i feel like i do sometimes. i try to talk to my mom and she says she understands but she doesn’t- and i hate it. i can’t even get dressed in certain clothing or watch a show i like anymore without ocd interfering. my mind is all over the place and i feel so helpless. i just wish it’d stop.

Hi everyone, I am still int he midst of an OCD Flare that started last week. I had 1 day when I felt a little better because I was with my s.o. and he kept me distracted all day Today I am alone at home like most of last week and having a hard time getting out of bed. My compulsions have been reassurance seeking online. Today the taboo OCD thoughts included false memory and I feel numb. No anxiety or fear which in turn is telling my brain that it means I am a horrible person who wanted all of these thoughts, likes them, etc. I have been crying on and off the past week so Im not sure if my body is just exhausted or if I finally accepted I am this terrible person capable of these horrible things. How do you get yourself to 1. Leave your bed 2. Manage the numbness.

I felt like I was doing ok (not great) in my OCD recovery, putting in the work and noticing some progress. But after this most recent set back I just feel so beat down and honestly feels so hard to keep doing recovery work. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I hate this, I hate mental health, I just want to be and feel normal. This past year that should be the best times of my life has been literally the absolute worst with no end in sight. I don’t understand how OCD has taken over my brain, not only in thoughts but heavy on the emotions/feelings side which is the worst.