neverbear
- Date posted
- 46w
harm ocd
i’m new in here, I am ashamed of my kind of ocd, I just went through a panic attack bc of it and i don’t know what to do, I feel scared of talking of it bc I feel like I am a bad person
L_e_dL_e_d
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w
You are not a bad person— harm OCD is super common. The content of your OCD doesn’t matter, one day it could be harm OCD, the next it could be relationship OCD. The real problem is the fear of uncertainty! I highly recommend doing ERP therapy through this app. I also recommend looking at the NOCD articles about harm OCD, it made me feel so understood!
neverbearneverbear
- Date posted
- 46w
@L_e_d thank you so much for your words, I’ve read them and helped me so much, I still feel like maybe my thoughts are real and not ocd, that I am a terrible person in comparison to another harm ocd patients are I don’t know what to do anymore because I feel I will someday just do something horrible
L_e_dL_e_d
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w
@neverbear Check out this article & NOCDs other harm OCD articles, they are so helpful! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-harm-ocd-guide-to-ocd-subtype
dslitedslite
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w
Also in panic mode and have harm ocd. You’re not alone and the ocd is lying to you. ❤️
neverbearneverbear
- Date posted
- 46w
@dspross thank you so much for your kind words, they mean the world to me rn thank you 😢💔
Hayhay223Hayhay223
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w
I had a panic attack last night, you’re not alone
neverbearneverbear
- Date posted
- 46w
@Hayhay223 thank you for your words 😢💔
SomaticSun🌤️SomaticSun🌤️
- Date posted
- 46w
I’m having a panic attack right now. I forgot how to not let an intrusive image keep you up all night. I always conveniently forget
L_e_dL_e_d
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w
@SomaticSun🌤️ There’s not a perfect “how”! Let the intrusive thought be there and sit with the feelings. Know that by doing that and not rationalizing the fears away you are actually growing stronger. That’s an ERP technique. I highly recommend you seek out ERP therapy! It will help so much
SomaticSun🌤️SomaticSun🌤️
- Date posted
- 46w
@L_e_d Thank you for that. May I ask, if you are able to think of other things instead of the intrusive image, would that be a good way to go about it? Like when they say don’t think of a pink elephant. Of course you will picture it as soon as you hear it, but I also have the ability to no longer think of it or see it in my mind, if I choose to. The reason I’m asking this is because my brother (also OCD sufferer) tells me to just keep seeing the intrusive image and focusing on it until it doesn’t bother me anymore. When I do that, it just grows more and more powerful and to be honest, never goes away. And it always bothers me. There is never a time where I can say, Wow, it’s not interesting anymore and it doesn’t bother me. But if I purposely think of other things, or even nothing at all, it tends to slowly disappear and I fall asleep. It only creeps back in when I feel my mind go and fetch it, just to get me mad. This is where I always get confused because I don’t know if it is considered thought-blocking to purposely not think of it. These are not automatic images that I can’t control. These are images my mind keeps presenting to me, just to get a reaction. Really hard to believe a mind would do that, just to get on my own nerves.. but it does. 🫤
neverbearneverbear
- Date posted
- 46w
@SomaticSun🌤️ I totally understand you, I felt the same way at first but when you get used to picture them you will get more and more bored about them, we can go out of this !! I am proud of everyone
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flowerpetals
- Date posted
- 24w
frustrating
harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
alyssa_h
- Date posted
- 22w
i can’t do this much longer
i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…
flowerpetals
- Date posted
- 15w
i’m posting.. again
i feel the need to say sorry because i’m posting yet again. i’m having a REALLY DIFFICULT episode of ocd that i haven’t had for a few months now. i experience contamination ocd everyday and have constant anxiety attacks, however because that’s so normal to me and doesn’t affect anyone but myself, it doesn’t affect me in the same way harm ocd does. i haven’t had to deal with really bad harm ocd thoughts for a good bit now so i’m struggling so bad right now. if anyone has seen my previous posts (which i’m sure you have), this came about over a small change that happened a couple weeks ago. it’s now blossoming into a full episode. it’s making me feel paralyzed and not want to do anything, but i know in the past i had to force myself to distract myself by actually doing things. i’m supposed to hang out with my friend tomorrow, but i’m so close to cancelling because i feel like i can’t do it. my physical symptoms are also worse than what i feel like i’m used to and it’s terrifying me into thinking i’m gonna get sick. i just don’t know how to get through it. it feels like impending doom and constant panic. i just want to feel like myself again and happy
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