OCD and lost items

OCD is causing so much stress in my life My ocd has a fear of losing objects everytime I lose something it's the end of my world and I have to go to a certain trash can to "repent" it as my ocd would like to call it I'm going aboard soon for university and I'm worried if I lose something aboard and I'm not able to access the location and my brain will stop working destroying my future I need to preform erp for this but when I try to do erp it fails as my brain doesn't stop nagging until it gets as it pleases My brain is wired so strongly and is so used to certain habits making ocd recovery and erp almost not possible And without meds is erp treatment really realistic anymore? Any advice if someone is going through something similar

miku -_-

Date posted: 1y

What helps me is to keep things in certain areas. For example, my bedroom at home all my essentials are on my dresser( perfumes and lotions) so when they go missing I know that they are in my backpack or my gym bag. Then my room at university I do the same thing I keep my essentials on my dresser almost like copy and pay from my home bedroom. I rarely lose things this way because then I can think back to where I might put it if it’s not in the usual place. Give it a try! It doesn’t work for everyone. For reference I attend university out of state from my home state.

miku -_-

Date posted: 1y

When I loose things it ruins my whole day. Like this week Sunday I was going to take a bus back to where my university is. My mom was late so when we pulled up to the bus station I had my lip balm she gave me a month ago. Keep in mind it’s a Burt’s and bees so I can buy another one. I was rushed out the car because the bus was going to leave. I thought I dropped the lip balm in the car I was sad and upset when I was in the bus because I couldn’t get it. Also I’m stubborn so I didn’t want to buy a new one. I told my bf he was like I’ll buy you a new one but it wouldn’t be the same. I opened my backpack today and found it because when I was rushing my first thought was put it in my bag because i knew it would fall. I know I may sound crazy talking about a lip balm but when I lose stuff I’m the same way. I’m happy I have it though :)

scutodragon

Date posted: 1y

@miku -_- The situation I’m In is kinda tricky I went to a gathering with my friends where I had to take my shoes off all our shoes look the same and I was one of the last to leave I know I took my shoes but since all our shoes look similar and you can’t be a 100% sure that’s where my ocd drives me NUTS and I can’t stop that I would need to do 2 complutions to calm down my mind first I would need to access the location currently not possible because the place Inst going to be available for a long time Second I need to go to a certain trash can and throw an item to “repent “ it pretty much throwing a pencil in the trash that somehow can “fix” the lost item Also when I go to university outside of state and I lost something even if I find it I’ll have to go to the certain trash can and “repent it” and it can only be from a certain trash can not any if I don’t do it I can’t focus or get anything done

scutodragon

Date posted: 1y

And if I lose something in university outside of state I’ll have to go to a certain trash can but the trash can is in my home state so I can’t access it my ocd in this point my ocd will kill me

LostForever

Date posted: 20w

I’m having a severe OCD breakout while abroad

As the title says, I’m having a severe breakout while abroad with a friend. It is contamination related and mostly STI related. I am at loss what to do and that ehat I’ve learned I am not able to follow and my intrustive thoughts are going rampant. I am not able tk enjoy my time and I am faking it for my friend. Going back earlier is not an option. What can I do to survive this period? I am not able to distinguish realistic fears from unrealistic ones anymore

Contamination OCD

jupiter

Date posted: 18w

I don’t know how to live anymore

(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.

🌊Anonymous🌊

Date posted: 15w

Traveling alone and the fear of going crazy

In a weeks I will traver around Europe with an interrail pass. My fear focus in the idea that if I am really tired and anxious will get 1. Depressed and I will not be able to do nothing 2. Start a new OCD spiral so intense that can make me suicidal. Last year before going to an specialist and understand how OCD works I studied in other country for summer, I was living alone and OCD was terrible at a point that I was writing all days to not emergency hotlines because I had this fear that the feelings I was having would be forever This experience has follow me in all my travels and, this being the most difficult, is again, playing with me. I will travel, I don't want my OCD to stop me doing things I really want but the closer the day gets, the more the excitement about the trip fades. So yes this travel is perfect for ERP but at the same time I am anxious about finding balance between resting but without it becoming an avoidance (that summer I also didn't go on many excursions due to exhaustion so I don't want this to happen to me again and spent all my day in the hostel sleeping) When I travel with other people I force myself to be functional which help to enjoy more my travels but alone... like right now takes me 1 hour to wake up in my house because of morning anxiety, being tired will do this more difficult If you have tips or experience I will be glad. Even with fear I want to do this travel

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