- Date posted
- 46w
First Relationship
Ok Hi. This is my first experience ever with rOCD and I think my OCD is flaring up bad because of it. I’ve always been insecure since a young age because of things people have commented about my appearance. Like about my nose or saying I have a masculine jaw (I’m female btw). I know I’m a good looking girl and many people have told me that I’m pretty… but for some reason I just don’t believe them. I know I wouldn’t have a boyfriend rn if I was unattractive but still, I can’t help but feel like he’s lying to me when he said I’m pretty or sexy. I’ve always obsessed about my looks and I feel like I’m always craving reassurance and validation from others. It’s exhausting. I also really do like my boyfriend, I think I’m falling in love with him. But I just don’t know. I don’t know what it feels like. I’m overthinking everything about our relationship and I keep thinking about his exes ughhhh. Comparing myself and his past relationships with ours. I feel like he doesn’t really like me even though he’s done nothing to show me that he doesn’t. I’m just so in my head and I hate feeling like this. I feel like he thinks I’m ugly or unattractive. It sucks. I have this lingering feeling of being undesirable. I need help!!!