I don't know what's real. I don't know who I am, I don't know if everything I believe is made up, all my emotions, my memories..it feels fake, I'm stressed the fuck out because I can't even tell if my past is real
I completely understand you. When I was under high stress the thoughts of false memory ocd come up. I can’t tell what is real and my mind likes to come up with scenarios and convince me what is real even if it never happened. It is extremely confusing ocd tries to control you this way but understand that you know yourself. If it is a memory or such that you think deep down is not aligned with who you are or your morals it most likely did not happen. Try not to ruminate even though it is intensely hard you need to fight through it and tell yourself no I will not listen to these false sayings. The more you try to understand the deeper and more stressed out you will become it is a loop. The only way to break this is by forcing yourself against your brain.
Oooof I’ve been there it’s not easy and it genuinely is horrific. What has helped me in the past is drinking some chamomile tea in the morning and nighttime. Speaking about it in therapy if that is a possibility. It took me a long time to get to be able to speak about it in therapy cos that scared me more trying to recall things and feeling like they never happened but they did!!!! They did they did they did. Anxiety and the mind plays humongous tricks on you. The brain is so cool and so scary but believe that your memories and judgement are true. hang in there I believe in you🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼
You’ll be okay💕💕💕
Relax, here is the golden rule. With OCD, if in doubt, it is mostly from OCD and it is not true or real.
(I apologize in advance for my bad punctuation and ongoing sentences, but i actually dont really care because it doesnt matter to me) Anywho, Im brand new to this app, been on it for just a few minutes now so im not really sure what im doing but i just needed to get it out that i am so extremely stressed with my life right now but its like my mind tries to convince me that im not stressed because i know everything will turn out fine in the future but then the thoughts of "what if it doesnt?" Start flooding in and all of my thoughts just start going back and forth and back and forth and im just so confused about everything that im doing everything i say or do right or wrong everything i do or say that can or maybe has affected people i just i feel like i hate myself so much after thinking all those things and working myself up over it all and then im just like, its gonna be okay tho in the end. AND THEN IT JUST STARTS ALL OVER AGAINF i cannot do this i cant continue suffering with all my thoughts just completely takinh over my mind and everything that i do. i think im so in control when i know im not. There are so many things going on in my life right now that i just feel like i have absolutely no control over, but i DO and easily have control over them, i just let myself believe that i dont, then i make it happen for some reason. I dont even know what else to say now that i just worked myself up into a sobbing spree. I am just so terrified.
I feel like I’ve lost who I am , even since my depression and ocd started. I don’t even know what I like anymore:(( I doubt everything I think and it’s so draining because I just want to feel like my old self again😭 I feel like I have no motivation to get better which is bothering me so much because I want too but something is holding me back from doing what I need to do :/ with all my thoughts and doubts , I feel like I can’t trust myself . I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this much pain
can a false memory feel very very very real? because i literally don’t know if something happened or not. absolutely no clue but it feels so real
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