- Date posted
- 46w
Everyday Struggles
OCD has been trying to kick my butt the past couple days. Sometimes it makes me feel evil or like a psychopath. I’ve currently been struggling with harm OCD and schizophrenia OCD is trying to make a comeback. It just really sucks sometimes. Occasionally I have a thought like “Just turn it off” or that I’m faking it or that I can flip a switch and just not care. Today I was starting to spiral about how awful OCD has made me feel. I had another one of those thoughts and I guess “tested” it out. I feel like I have an emotional block where I have this sensation to cry, but it doesn’t actually happen. Well, I have into that thought and it felt like I did just move on past it. That made me feel weird and just reinforced my OCD themes. I have been doing Neurofeedback therapy to help with anxiety and OCD. It’s basically where they monitor and adjust brain waves. Well we moved to a new spot on my head today to help with the OCD. So maybe that has something to do with it. I just hate OCD so much and I guess want to know if anyone has had similar experiences with those types of thoughts/feelings/sensations.