*Huh!? Whats the point in doing that?* WHY? My mind has decided it will ask me this question whenever i'm doing ANYTHING! For instance; *I'm at work* - Why am i here? To earn money - For what? House, car, clothes? - For what? Well i dont want to have no money and live on the streets? - Why? Coz i'll starve and i dont want that - Why? Because evolution has taught me to survive - Why survive? I DONT FUCKING KNOW Like obviously when you look at life in the big picture, thousand years from now my life won't matter. I love my family, friends etc but what am i here for? To work, have a couple holidays and nights out a year and grow old and die? Since i had this awakening i can't seem to dismiss this belief. Anything i do seems pointless, because i look right through it to the core and say why am i genuinely doing this and the true reason is never justified. Whether it be for fun or health...what does it matter in the grandscheme..NOTHING. 'So why do anything' is my brains new logic. Anyway, i know ERP would be to except that lifes probably meaningless and i'll never get a minutes peace in my life because i'll always be reminded by this fact but is anyone dealing with anything similar? Cheers.

We're both commenting in another thread at the moment, but I just wanted to respond here too. YES. You're spot on the ERP- just gotta live with the uncertainty. There are no answers. I've dealt with many themes but Existential has been one of the toughest for me throughout the years because "you were born so you have to exist until you die and it's all meaningless except for the liminal meaning you create" is pretty, uh, definitive lol. I suppose religion and afterlife beliefs help some people with that, but when I get into such ideas, I just swing into scrupulousity. Yikes. Such is life with OCD. Cheers :p

Oh my god this is me constantly. Thank youuuuuu. I've been wondering whether this was part of my OCD or not, and assumed it was, but I haven't seen anyone touch on what I go through quite like this. For example, if I think about going to the gym, and I don't feel like doing it, I wonder if I'm just doing it because society wants me to look a certain way. And then I'll think, no but it helps my body stay healthy, but then I think, but I could be doing other hobbies and it's not like my body is going to improve in one session, and on and on. It's like this for the littlest things I want to do, like just choosing a movie to watch sometimes, or deciding whether to read or play a game. It's so fucking annoying!!!!!!!

Cheers for the reply. Ye, i'll stick to ERP. It's a strange one E OCD because an existential crisis seems so close to it. Which plenty of people go through and can come out better on the other side but like someone said on the other post E OCD seems to be never ending with no conlcusion.