- Date posted
- 46w
self sabotage advice
hi, does anyone have any coping methods for self sabotage and ocd for example, i’m not ‘allowed’ to buy things like clothes because i don’t deserve it because i’m a bad person
hi, does anyone have any coping methods for self sabotage and ocd for example, i’m not ‘allowed’ to buy things like clothes because i don’t deserve it because i’m a bad person
I think in order to feel like you deserve good things you need to extend your empathy a bit. Not saying you need to love bad people but recognize their humanity, I personally feel like no one in this lifetime should suffer, but yes of course people deserve consequences for their actions and those consequences shouldn’t always be nice and dandy but they shouldn’t be literal torture either. They way I see it, no one can improve under stress or being tortured, everyone deserves to better themselves. And yes ik it seems like I’m saying ur bad but treat yourself good anyways. Thing is I don’t know you and I can’t give you reassurance but what I can say is it doesn’t matter. You are human and deserve a decent life and endless opportunities to grow better as a person. Everyone has their flaws and we should all strive to be our best selves. You can only love yourself to change, hate cannot and doesn’t change anyone for the better.
@seals are awesome that was amazingly worded. i really appreciate the empathy you are extending towards me. yes my self worth is very low so it’s hard to act against the compulsions the ocd is telling me to not buy things.
I struggle with the same, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. 😔 self compassion is important and we have to treat ourselves like we’d treat our friends.
@sick&tired i agree. i’m glad to know i’m not alone. therapists always ask me how would i react to a friend in this situation and i know how to but i struggle to extend that to myself!
Yes, a great idea is to write letters from your self to your self. This is helping me, always encouraging and compassionate
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