What’s (one of) your first memory of OCD? One of my first was that I had to put my Nintendo 64 controllers in a certain way before bed, my parents had no idea what I was doing.

I had to wash my hands before the imaginary game show that happened in my head was over lol

I was 5 or 6 and I went in the street and thought to myself about how i kick up random people

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when I was younger I couldn’t go to sleep until I touched every door in my house so that no monsters or scary things could get inside lol

When a was younger i had to say the same very long prayer before bed exactly or else it wouldn’t be answered i thought

I also wore glasses and had to constantly look at each speck of dust on the lenses. I also have memories from very young of counting sides of window frames

When I was eight I watched I scary movie and started thinking "what if I love the antichrist" I ended up convincing myself that I sold my soul to the devil. I had to say "in the name of Yeshua I command you to leave" over and over again. I'm not even from a particularly religious family. My compulsions and intrusive thoughts distracted me pretty badly in school and my 3rd grade teacher was abusive. I think me struggling with OCD and aspergers is was prompted her to abuse me. She didn't physically hurt me although I'm sure she wanted to, but would put me in a dark book closet, scream at me, embarrass me purposefully infront of the class, bring snacks in for everyone else and not give me any. I wasn't allowed to participate in activities even if I met the requirements. She would encourage the rest of my classmates to isolate and bully me. I told a boy that I had a crush on him and he told all of my classmates. Somehow it got back to the teacher and she sat everyone down and said that it's inappropriate to have feelings like that at my age and especially inappropriate for me to confess them, so anyone who didn't know at that point knew then. I had a classmate constantly refer to me as "fat ass" and I remember telling the teacher, really upset, that I wanted her to tell the girl to stop and she told me to not be a tattletale. My parents tried to get her fired, but faculty protected her. My brother had a recorder that he would play around with and my mom brought him to school meetings concerning my situation. He recorded my teacher during two separate meetings and caught her lying big time, one with private with just her, and one with administration. Administration didn't care and we couldn't use the recordings legally because it was illegal in my state to record someone without their permission at the time. I had a really hard time trusting teachers after that.