ejgh

Date posted: 5y

What’s (one of) your first memory of OCD? One of my first was that I had to put my Nintendo 64 controllers in a certain way before bed, my parents had no idea what I was doing.

maddiepop28

Date posted: 5y

I had to wash my hands before the imaginary game show that happened in my head was over lol

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

Did you think it was strange at the time?

confused writer

Date posted: 5y

I was 5 or 6 and I went in the street and thought to myself about how i kick up random people

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Date posted: 5y

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ejgh

Date posted: 5y

I was scared there was going to be great cats jumping in through my window on the second floor! It still feels uncomfortable to think about it, and I’m 26 years old!

rlr

Date posted: 5y

when I was younger I couldn’t go to sleep until I touched every door in my house so that no monsters or scary things could get inside lol

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

This is similar to what I had! Sleep is so scary and uncertain.

rlr

Date posted: 5y

@ejgh yeah I’ve always had trouble falling asleep and have never liked the idea of it :/

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

@rlr Same. Happy someone shares it.

peternocd

Date posted: 5y

When a was younger i had to say the same very long prayer before bed exactly or else it wouldn’t be answered i thought

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

I can imagine religion can make it difficult at times. Did you know that this (and OCD in general) was called scrupulosity in the past? It was because people would pray and be so incredibly pious because they had OCD.

peternocd

Date posted: 5y

I also wore glasses and had to constantly look at each speck of dust on the lenses. I also have memories from very young of counting sides of window frames

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y

When I was eight I watched I scary movie and started thinking "what if I love the antichrist" I ended up convincing myself that I sold my soul to the devil. I had to say "in the name of Yeshua I command you to leave" over and over again. I'm not even from a particularly religious family. My compulsions and intrusive thoughts distracted me pretty badly in school and my 3rd grade teacher was abusive. I think me struggling with OCD and aspergers is was prompted her to abuse me. She didn't physically hurt me although I'm sure she wanted to, but would put me in a dark book closet, scream at me, embarrass me purposefully infront of the class, bring snacks in for everyone else and not give me any. I wasn't allowed to participate in activities even if I met the requirements. She would encourage the rest of my classmates to isolate and bully me. I told a boy that I had a crush on him and he told all of my classmates. Somehow it got back to the teacher and she sat everyone down and said that it's inappropriate to have feelings like that at my age and especially inappropriate for me to confess them, so anyone who didn't know at that point knew then. I had a classmate constantly refer to me as "fat ass" and I remember telling the teacher, really upset, that I wanted her to tell the girl to stop and she told me to not be a tattletale. My parents tried to get her fired, but faculty protected her. My brother had a recorder that he would play around with and my mom brought him to school meetings concerning my situation. He recorded my teacher during two separate meetings and caught her lying big time, one with private with just her, and one with administration. Administration didn't care and we couldn't use the recordings legally because it was illegal in my state to record someone without their permission at the time. I had a really hard time trusting teachers after that.

Insephy

Date posted: 25w

When did you realize you have OCD?

Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone

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geodrimilis

Date posted: 24w

Can I be born with ocd?

So basically I didn’t know till my hocd started. But looking back at my life I had ocd since I was a kid. Like 6-7 years old. First time happening I remember that when I was doing stuff many times I had to say something like a little poem in my head to stop it. Then I had this thing were if I felt my left foot touch the floor 5 times I had to do the touch the floor with my right foot too. Then I had something I guess contamination??? Basically after washing my hands I had a sensation on my hand like I could still “feel” the germs and I had to wash them again. Then I started having thoughts of my family members getting hurt. I had intrusive thoughts about me hurting my dog. Then I had this obsession that a guy who used to be in my school is looking for me to beat me up. And how it’s this obsession about my sexuality even tho I never doubted or questioned it before. Is that possible??? Like can you be born with it? I’m pretty sure both my parents have it too. At least at some level. Take my father for example he had an obsession that he was going to die the moment he turned 30.

sophea

Date posted: 17w

What's the silliest OCD obsession you've had?

I think it's important to be able to make fun of yourself and joke about these things, so, just for fun, what's the silliness obsession you've had? Here's mine: when I was six I convinced myself that my overdue library books would create a butterfly effect that would end the world

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