God

@TadMan I know but I want god to choice for me my missing rib I just pray I hear him right and I find him even if I do have ocd

@TadMan I want god to pick because then he will give me a man of god and if he’s a man of god he will help and lead me to god when I’m struggling with ocd so I pray god makes me signs that are very clear

@Notfun God will not choose your spouse for you. He can certainly lead you to someone that would be a good godly man for you but it is ultimately your decision to choose. I know that that statement may feel extremely uncomfortable for you but God wants you to run towards those uncomfortable feelings and not avoid them as he wants to strengthen your faith and trust in him in any areas of uncertainty. I'm going to challenge you with this. Let's say hypothetically that God does choose your spouse for you, you feel 100% certain about it at first, you get married, and then, all of a sudden, you begin having doubts about whether you married the right person or not. Does that mean God is a liar and a deceiver? By no means! It is Satan who is the liar and the deceiver of our soul. He attacks our mind and emotions because he desparately wants us to doubt God, ourselves, and others. I encourage you to listen to Mark DeJesus' podcast and read his books. He has a lot of good insight in areas pertaining to relationship OCD from a Christian perspective.

@TadMan I know god has someone for me and he did pick someone for me because I ask him to I hope that he does make it well known to me who my husband is spouse to be I know that won’t stop the doubts but at least I have someone that will and lead me back to god every single time that’s what I mean

@TadMan I just also pray my kids never have to go through this I know it’s a low chance they might get it because of me but I still worry but I trust god if he allows that to happen it’s to make someone grow

@Notfun I say this with sincerity and compassion to you but I sense that you're seeking an idealized version of a potential spouse. Also, I don't sense that you have much hope or faith in God because you stated earlier that you have "little peace knowing God has it all taken care of and it's hard to let go" which sounds like you're still trying to control the outcome of what God has in store for you. According to Romans 5:3-5, the apostle Paul states that we need to rejoice in our sufferings and not just complain about them because suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces HOPE, and HOPE does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us!

@TadMan I think I may have worded it wrong but thank you

@TadMan Thank you maybe that comment was to make me be held accountable because lately I been seeing a lot of signs of god trying to tell me to trust him thank you

@Notfun You're welcome! Glad that I could help you!

@Zoë_84 Not no more no I have god that’s all I need if god wants to heal me he will if he doesn’t he has a reason

@Notfun What? Stopping treatment, because you believe god will heal you is very dangerous! If you suffered from diabetes, would you refuse to take insulin as well?

@Zoë_84 You kind of sound like your judging me for having faith in my god please don’t do that I faith in god if he wants to heal me he will and he’s done a good job so far I feel like why would I put all my trust therapy when I know the creator of the universe who created everything

@Notfun Well, you do you.