- Date posted
- 42w
Worrying over a cold
I got a cold and its been more than a week now and i still have symptoms, and im worrying alot. I have problems still with fear, i cant sit with it. Im working on sitting with sadness and it helps alot but with fear and sometimes with anger its hard cause it feeds itself. If im sitting with the fear of having a health problem, it just gets worse, then i start to think about what should i do, and it gets worse cause i worry more and more. I was checked by a doctor and got meds but im still worrying that i should go back, and now im worrying about having other problems, i should go check out everything, but im afraid they will find something...Im trying to expose myself slowly, i will go get my heart checked cause i want to start training, then if im not recovered then i will get a check up on my sinuses, im willing to do these, but then im also worried what if i have cancer or any other illness, and i have to do alot of check ups that i dont wan to but if i dont do it then im ignoring my health and im keep worrying and it doesnt stop. Today i heard black mold is dangerous to you and i know we have some kind of mold in the bathroom and im worrying alot about that too.. And thats my problem with fear it doesnt stops until i force myself to push it away. If i just sit with it it feeds itself and im keep being stuck and now i start to not enjoy things and im afraid i will get depressed... Is there a way to go through fear without getting certainty about things? Like my health? Alot of people share this mindset that you have to go to check if everything is okay but i dont find that good..