Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Halloween depression

My ocd has been so bad the last 2 months I've fallen into depression. Never experienced this feeling before of dread. Every morning I wake up dreading the day. I'm so tired of coming on here and whining I used to be so strong. I'm weaning off effexor too right now but my ocd is stuck on a weird existential theme right now. I keep having thoughts of my brain and how it's weird i have one and idk why it gives me anxiety. Halloween used to be my favorite holiday now I feel nothing. I'm taking my son trick or treating later and I just feel like a bad father

spartan

Date posted: 41w

Speak with your doctor and let him know in details what you are going through.He/she should be the one to decide on the best medication for you.I am on Zoloft for 20 years now and it is magical.Not even 1 single obsessive thought ever since

Samer

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w

Maybe small consolation from a stranger on the internet but the fact that you’re taking your son trick or treating and spending time with him shows that you’re trying and therefore not a bad father. Just my two cents, keep pushing bro.

Speckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w

You aren't a bad father! How was trickery treating?

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

It was a lot of fun thanks for asking!!!

Lolo220

Date posted: 41w

Me too. Have you been diagnosed with anything besides ocd?

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Nope every dr says it's just ocd

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

I've never had hallucinations or delusions. Does it sound like I have something else? I freak out my intrusive thoughts about the brain is so weird and crazy that it's not ocd

Lolo220

Date posted: 41w

@Ragnarking18 Heck if I know. I'm in the same place. I don't know if it's just ocd or also depression for me. Never been diagnosed with depression before but also never dealth with this theme combo and the feeling of heavy chest in the morning.

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

@Lolo220 I've never been through depression before so it's a scary feeling. Tired of having panic attacks when I wake u

Lolo220

Date posted: 41w

@Ragnarking18 It doesn't sound like you need to worry about delusions or hallucinations!

Brittneedshelp

Date posted: 41w

Halloween this year pretty much sucked because I’ve never felt this horrible

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Yup same bro

danielwarwick

Date posted: 41w

You’re amazing and you’ll get over it. Existential themes are so draining, I’ve been there. This feelings just show how important is life and moments for you. Best thing you can do is to stop ruminating, day by day, when you realize you’re doing it you just bring your attention back to the present moment. Anxiety won’t tell you something accurate, just calm will, and you’ll realize how great you are and how happiness you put into life, and that’s why it’s important to you and your ocd can tackle that. I wish you the best!

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Hey ty so much for that needed to hear that

Estrid

Date posted: 41w

Maybe you are tapering off your meds too fast. So, so important to go slow - many doctors aren't competent enough in this area. If you have used the med for 14 years, and take years to come off. I followed the 10% rule - it helped me a lot.

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Yea a month ago I went from 150 mg of effexor to 75 mg in a day while taking a new medication called clomipramine I had the worst panic attack after that. So I saw a psychiatrist nocd recommended about medication and were doing it slow this time

Lolo220

Date posted: 41w

Why are you going off effexor? I've heard it's helpful

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Been on it for 14 yrs it's not helping anymore

Lolo220

Date posted: 41w

@Ragnarking18 Did it help before?? That was my experience with lexapro. Was great for 10 years then ocd flared

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 41w

Thanks guys appreciate it

Brian :)

Date posted: 25w

My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.

Luke_McElwee

Date posted: 25w

Losing my shit, freaking out

Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.

jro_04

Date posted: 23w

Scary existential thoughts

So today I’ve been crying all day. My existential OCD has flared up in the past week and it may or may not have been because of me trying to quit nicotine. Don’t get me wrong I had been having thoughts before that but it seemed to be at a calm for a few months. I also have been alone for the past week due to my mom going away on vacation. That may or may not have been a factor as well. But I’ve been feeling really depressed and scared. So much has been on my mind that it would be paragraphs and paragraphs so I’ll just leave it up to the people who have experienced existential OCD. I’ve noticed that I haven’t been giving much attention to my other subtypes in the sense of challenging them. I guess I felt that since I had the scary existential thoughts on hold that I didn’t have to work on the other stuff because I felt like those things were worth worrying about instead of worrying about my purpose or why am I me type of thoughts. I just write this to share and maybe get advice from anyone experiencing what I’ve been experiencing. I’m going to keep going though and keep trying to kick OCD’s ass. Because what’s the alternative? Lol. Hope whoever is reading this is enjoying the little things and giving themselves grace and having a good day. 😊🙏

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