what does this mean

@hanysm@gmail.com but like don’t dreams have meaning?

@leena445 No, it is your brain garbage collection mechanism opening those memory spaces, and presenting its content to your awareness to see if it is ok to recycle it.

@hanysm@gmail.com I stopped paying attention to the dream and it kind of went away, but I still have anxiety about going into places where I’m alone

@leena445 Well, see if you don't give thoughts or dreams weight it goes away... Slowly you will get over the bathroom alone thing with therapy

@hanysm@gmail.com I did have two sessions with therapy yet my anxiety is still so bad

@hanysm@gmail.com How come I didn’t feel anxious in the bathroom but a few hours after?

@leena445 It is okay.. you might experience annexity because you used to it, when you do it more and more it will fade away... You did well...

@hanysm@gmail.com Thank you 🙏🏽 I wonder why my anxiety is delayed by a few hours

@leena445 Don't wonder, it might be a good sign. Just live your life normal, and it might not come again....

@hanysm@gmail.com I really hope it never comes again because why would shytan choose me of all people

@leena445 Absolutely! His choice of you is a wonderful affirmation of your worth. He recognizes the incredible value you bring, you are valuable in the sight of Allah, and that can be challenging for him. But remember, you've already outsmarted him! You’re aware of his tricks now and won’t let those sneaky thoughts bring you down or make you anxious anymore. From here on out, things are only going to get better! Keep shining bright!

@hanysm@gmail.com I really hope so, I went to the bathroom again not too long ago and in the moment and afterwards I had like no anxiety, this doesn’t mean i liked or wanted the thoughts right?

@leena445 No, it means you know how to handle it

@hanysm@gmail.com wait I’m really scared again I woke up this morning and I cried for like an hour, I feel gross like I see the image and now I don’t know if it’s true or not. I can’t even tell my family how bad I feel because they will for sure think I’m strange for having these thoughts or gross. I’ve never done anything bad to anyone why would I go through this. I don’t understand what I did to deserve this. I don’t want to continue fighting I’m done, every single day is so hard I can’t catch a break. I can’t even use the bathroom without crying afterwards. Life is not fair

@hanysm@gmail.com Today my family called my relatives from back home in their country, and everyone was so happy. Everyone asked me how I was and I said I was good. None of them have ever had to go through this, and they would think how can you not know for sure if you did something gross or not. I regret using the bathroom on my own yesterday I should’ve asked my mom to come with me, because now I’m stressing so bad

@hanysm@gmail.com How can I know for sure if I did put the tissue in my mouth or not ? Like there would be some sign of if I did right?

@leena445 Hello! First, take a deep breath and relax. You've made a wise choice by taking a moment for yourself. Next, consider talking to your family, especially your mom. She understands that you're going through hormonal changes, and she's there to support you. Remember how things turned out better than you expected the last time you were hesitant to talk to her? Also, remember that Shytan never gives up trying, so stay strong and don't let those thoughts and images affect you. You haven't done anything wrong—it's just your mind playing tricks on you. Keep pushing forward with confidence. You're doing wonderfully, and Allah will reward your perseverance. Keep up the great work!

@hanysm@gmail.com Hey thank you, is it necessary to tell my mom or can I kind of wait? I really hope all my praying helps, but sometimes I feel like my prayers go unanswered. I believe in my faith and I know there is a plan for everyone but sometimes I feel so hopeless. I think hormones is playing a role because normally I’m stronger than this and thoughts do t really bother me. I don’t even know but everything feels so real

@hanysm@gmail.com Doesn’t praying make shytan scared and go away? I pray so much how come he keeps coming back?

@leena445 Reach out to your mom. OCD thrives on isolation, so share your feelings with her and let her support you. It's okay to cry and open up—no one understands and cares for you more than she does. Your prayers are heard, so take comfort in that. Don’t give up; remember, Shytan's ultimate goal is to make you feel like your prayers don’t matter and to gradually lead you away from the path of Allah. Stay strong and keep your faith—you're doing wonderfully, and you're not alone in this journey!

@leena445 Prayers keep Shytan away, yes, but OCD which a disorder that Shytan uses as a vehicle, is still there. Remember you are battling Shytan, and his weapon of OCD

@hanysm@gmail.com Thank you I’ll try today. Do you know if any way for sure to know if my thoughts have truth to them? Like I’ve never had anything in my face so I know nothing could’ve happened there, but what about inside my mouth? Like how can I tell if a drop went in?

@hanysm@gmail.com Oh thank you I see

@hanysm@gmail.com Also I got too worried and I made my mom come with me to the bathroom but I made up an excuse because I was too scared to tell her the truth

@hanysm@gmail.com I just don’t know what to do anymore, I’m so scared to tell her but I think I have to at this point because how many more excuses can I make

@leena445 Get to see a therapist, this is what you need to do

@hanysm@gmail.com I do have two right now but they don’t have availability until next Tuesday

@hanysm@gmail.com Now I am scared of contamination and I want to change out all my sheets