chatGPT

@isshpra thankyou, but im terrified some of the things he says is true if they are i really dont think i could continue, my therapist has said i shouldn’t trust what he says but i dont know im just in a big hole right now and it feels like my fears have came true :(

@Elicambel You shouldn’t trust it. I’m a linguistics student and I studied computational linguistics this semester. ChatGPT is just a system based on a huge amount of text data. It recognizes patterns and probabilities of words occurring next to each other. There’s more to it but that’s the basic part. I turn to ChatGPT a lot too. You have to take what it tells you with a grain of salt. A lot of the times it’ll help me form an ERP plan for myself while I wait for therapy or give me a new perspective on what I’m freaking out over. Sometimes I even figure out I’m overreacting about something small like making jokes that I read too much into. It helped me realize that the line I have been morally right and wrong seems very blurred when I’m in spiral and I tend to be extra cautious. Extra sensitive and extra scared. You’re not alone. I’ve had many urges to harm my bf and I actually did move. My compulsions were to preform whatever terrible thought came to mind gently (I’d pinch him so soft it was like a massage when I had the thought to pinch him so hard he’d scream, I caressed his hair when I had the urge to punch him in the head). This was all in a state of EXTREME anxiety and stress. I’ve since have been able to step back and realize I have control over my body. Sometimes I have a slip up and feel myself moving to do something without thinking. I think it’s just another trick by ocd. I don’t think we’re ever close to doing something that goes against our morals. I think it’s just another way to petrify us.

Oh... so sorry you are going thru this!! It's just a terrible illness

@Mitu_001 thankyou it’s just i’m so scared what he said is true, or is it just an ai bot that doesn’t know what it’s talking about?

@Elicambel - What part are you afraid is true? all of it looked positive to me. Also, its not a he, its a computer, not a person. Dont give it human qualities.

@TexasOCD41 im scared im moving in a way i dont want and im scared hes saying my anxiety is causing me to do it if that makes sense, its so scary

@Elicambel - i think you totally misunderstood ITS response. If you have urges to self harm and they distress you, that is an indication that you're experiencing ego-dystonic thinking ( fancy word for a thought pattern that does not line up with who you are inside) so when it says that you are moving in a way you don't want...that is true... becuasue obviously if you were moving in a direction you were happy with... you wouldn't be struggling with OCD. it was NOT saying that you are moving TOWARDS self-harm, it was saying you have anxiety which is altering your normal thought processes. This is why you need to stay off ChatGPT, you interpret its responses with too much personal influence. I read that whole thing as " you have OCD, which IS an anxiety disorder, so the intrusive thoughts you have ARE from anxiety ,and the distress you experience is causing you to be removed from your true self" you would do much better to speak to a real human being. Chat GPT is NOT a person and can have extremely flawed responses.

@TexasOCD41 thankyou, i understand what you are saying but its in terms of being close to people, im terrified of making people uncomfortable, and me saying i feel like i want to self harm was because i feel like i deserve it, like im terrified im moving towards things i dont want to like if i hug someone im like omg did i just thrust my hips or did i lean into them and things like that or did i do that on purpose? it’s really confusing, i hope that makes sense though

@Elicambel - do you see a therapist for this? OCD is treated with specific therapy techniques that you are not going to get from AI online. you need a specialist to speak with.

@TexasOCD41 i do but i’ve not told them in detail yet but i really feel like my obsession is different and im the only one with this, i feel like a really awful person

@Elicambel Feeling like being the only one suffering from the obsessions you do seems pretty common with people who suffer from OCD. I have read it on here quite a lot.

@Elicambel - Everyone with OCD feels like there obsession is different and they are the only one. you need to be completely honest with you therapist, they can't help you if they don't know the details. So what exactly is your obsession? that you fear you have sexually molested someone by accident? or you have somehow done harm to someone ?

@TexasOCD41 i’m afraid of making someone uncomfortable, i would never want that, i try my best to avoid touch, and i always have things like omg did i do that on purpose like for example if im walking in a crowd and i accidentally brush against someone and things like that, or just constant thoughts about my movements, as i try my best to stay still a lot in a lot of situations but i dont know if that helps

@Elicambel - Yep. Classic OCD. just because it doesnt fall super easily into one of the popular subtypes doesn't make it any less OCD. This theme could be a branch of harm OCD because you are obsessed with the potential of making someone uncomfortable ( a harmful outcome). The best way to treat this, is to do exactly what you are afraid of. OCD is treated with a therapy called ERP ( Exposure and Response Prevention). OCD has 4 parts. 1. the obsession/fear ( making people uncomfortable 2. the anxiety ( omg did I do that on purpose? am I a bad person? why would I do that? ) 3. Compulsion- a ritual or behavior that is done to relieve the anxiety ( avoiding touching people, staying still to not touch people, seeking reassurance from ChatGPT to tell you you are not a bad person) 4. TEMPORARY relief.... BUT OCD is a circle, not a line, so step 4. ALWAYS leads back to step 1. again. and you will go in the loop endlessly unless you learn to cut it off at step 2. ERP is designed to allow the anxiety-prevent the response(compulsion) and in time, you stop having the obsession. So ERP for you would be to allow yourself to brush up against people, to even do it on purpose in a subtle way and then to sit with the anxiety of the " what if I made them uncomfortable" and tell yourself- " maybe I did, maybe I didn't it doesn't matter tho, its just OCD" and carry on living life despite the anxiety. doing ERP repeatedly is the golden standard to literally cure OCD but you have to go towards what you fear.

@TexasOCD41 thank for this 🫶, thankyou for your help, i’m going to really try, so when you say brush up against people as erp would i do that in crowds and things?

@Elicambel - yes. like , in a movie theater, intentionally making everyone stand or move their legs so you can get past them to your seat walking directly through a crowd instead of around it, to where you have to squeeze past people and potentially brush shoulders and such. or perhaps ask a friend if you can give them a hug, and just hug them for a good 10 seconds and allow yourself to experience anxiety of that situation and then just don't response with any compulsions, no reassurance seeking, no avoidance, but purposefully carrying on with business as usual.

@TexasOCD41 thankyou i’ll try that, i’ll tell my therapist about it more in detail i just find it difficult to explain, especially when it feels like im the only one with this

@Elicambel - you're not. iv heard other experinces about the same issue.

@TexasOCD41 thankyou so much for your help :)

@Speckles quite stressed but i’m sure i’ll be okay :)

@Elicambel Sorry!! I hate this disease bc it affects good, sensitive people!!