I was helping my child and i knew if i walked away itd cause a groinal and i knew she was going to respond to my question so i walked away and said no compulsively because i anticipated a groinal but ocd said i did something bad
Question, are your posts about groinal compulsions, seeking reassurance or confessions?
@hanysm@gmail.com Definetely seeking reassurance. I guess confession in the past as a compulsion but with groinals i dont need to confess as its natural and involuntsry and im not doing anything wrong but its the compulsion of reassurance seekig
@Anonynmous19 If it's a natural and involuntary sensation, and you're not doing anything wrong, why do you feel guilty about it and feel the need to share this private experience? If you didn't mention it, no one would ever know. In fact, trying to hide or avoid it might actually draw more attention to yourself. This might seem a bit bold, but some people even take pride in making sure others notice them, seeing it as something attractive. By their standards, you're just a very sexual person. If you're worried about acting on these feelings, rest assured that you won't. Just accept them and focus on your surroundings instead of fixating on the sensation or its triggers. Sometimes, you might imagine things as triggers, and your brain follows what you think.
Again im sitting down and on my phone. I hear someone next door and since im hunched over it causes groinal so i adjust and i think shake my head no as a compulsion but ocd makes me dount did i do the compulsion or shake my head. Did i cause a groinal. I know its ocd
Try to move you focus away from the groinal response. Whether it happens or not, try to keep your focus off of it. I understand that might sound like madness, but you don't need to focus on something that may occur involuntarily. As you pay less attention to it, it may subside, but more importantly you will start to make space in you mind for the things that you want to spend thought on. The good thoughts that you deserve to have time for. Have you ever tried meditation? My bout with ocd introduced me to meditation, and it's basically the idea of practicing moving your minds focus. It builds the executive function skills we have, that can help us choose what we spend thought on. In meditation, our brains want to wander off our focus, and that's normal, but when we noticed it we move our thought back to our focus. This skill may help when your mind gravitates to your concerns about groinal. Meditation may help you move your mind to a different focus when this happens. My introduction to meditation was with the calm app. There is an instructor on there (Jeff Warren) that has a set of 30 (10 ish minutes) meditations called something like meditation for beginners. I found it super helpful, particularly how he explains that it's ok that your mind drifts, etc.)
A compulsion i do is if i get a groinal or anticipate it i take a step. Adjust my legs and feet to avoid the groinals. I was carrying my daughter and worry about groinals which sucks. I had groinals when I picked her up but discarded it didnt give it attention. Then when i put her down i had intrusive thoughts about groinals worrying if i get it. I took a step to my right and just sat with the groinals and the thoughts. I do t remember if i took a second step or not but ocd hyper-focused in the groinal sensations and i feel guilty its telling me i took tbe step to get groinals and i sat with it to arouse myself but i think i took the step as a compulsion and my ocd hyperfocused on the ocd and was aware of it and just let it be but ocd is saying i acted on the thoughts and aroused myself i know thats not true.
I was giving my child a bath. I picked her up out the tub because shes small. But the momentum of picking her up she swang a little toward my body and ocd said did i hip thrust kr do anything wrong. I did a compulsion saying NO repeatedly. And i put her back down and beforehand i didnt have any ill intent just to help her get out because shes a toddler. I had other intrusive thoughts but tbats not my intent i was just trying to be a good dad
Ugh i was making salah and has groinals. And worried i heard my childs voice. I struggke with pocd. I moved my legs because it hit the bed and i heard my kids voice then i felt groinals as i was bowing in ruku. My compulsion is saying stop and no and adjusting. And my ocd also causes involuntary intrusivr movements. Like sudden twitches or hip thrusts or bodily movements. I just remember adjusting while in ruku and saying no and stop to the thoughts. I also remember feeling thr groinals and just being in third person and observing jt. I also froze up and felt stuck. This happened twice. Then ocd says i was arousing myself over my kids voice during salah which i know is absurd its ego dystonic its ocd. I hate having pocd and groinals. I know i was just adjusting because ei hit the bed. Then i felt groinals and heard my kids voice and felt triggered by pocd. Then i felt my body twitching in ruku and me adjusting and also freezing up and getting stuck. Ocd tries ti make me thing i did something sexually inappropriate during prayer. I know thats not who i am. I dont do sexual inappropriate acts and especially not during prayer. I’ve already been very anxious for days so i know its just a continuation of ocd attacking me. I just hate that ofd makes me think by me adjusting and by bodily movements anxiously intrusively incoluntary moving and me getting stuck that i did something bad thats what ocd tells me. I know its not true. Why does ocd make us think or feel we did something bad
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