- Date posted
- 39w
Ruminating
Hi guys, this is my first post and I’m a little bit nervous writing this. I’ve been experiencing compulsive thoughts for over two years now and I don’t know what to do. I have not been diagnosed by a psychologist or anything, but from what I’ve seen and read, I do experience many of the symptoms. My intrusive thoughts started two years ago when I was dating this guy, everything was so nice, I really liked him and it was going good until one day I just had an intrusive thought about a guy I used to talk way before him, it was nothing bad, it was just his face that kept popping everywhere and everything I did with my ex. We did break up 8 months ago, it was not a really good break up but I’m definitely doing better, I know for sure I don’t miss him or anything. I have started talking to this guy, he’s really nice and sweet and we have so many things in common, I feel like I connected so well with him, until again.. I’m starting to have these thoughts but now it’s with my ex.. I just feel so bad. I know I like this guy so much and I really do want to get to know him more and have a relationship with him. We’ve kissed and it felt so good, something I haven’t really felt. But with these thoughts I’m not sure what to do, I do not miss my ex , I don’t want anything to do with him. I just don’t know what to do, I’ve been reaching out for therapy but they either do not have space or insurance doesn’t cover. Guys if any of you have ever experienced something like this please let me know. I just feel like my head is about to explode.